Please see a doctor. You may have an eating disorder, and only a qualified doctor can properly diagnose such things.
Eating disorders aren't always caused by wanting to be thin for many it's the same, it's the need of controlling things to the extreme and having no other way to cope. Louis theroux just made a documentary on anorexia, you should watch it, maybe you might be able to relate. It's so much more than wanting to be thin.
So you want people to tell you that you have an eating disorder, but then refuse you have an eating disorder so people will further tell you the truth and give you attention? You know what's going on, or maybe you want that to happen.
This is somethin I've once struggled with, to the extent that the mere sight of food would make me cry. Can't say for eveyone, but I had to "force" myself to eat even though I was in tears the whole way through and it would take me hours to finish a little amount.
The more you go without food, the harder it becomes to eat.
If nothing helps, if theres no increase, visit the doctors. Either there's an underlying condition or its an ED, both for whoch hopefully help is available.