This is difficult to write, because I feel so pathetic doing so....
I have a problem (at least it feels like one) where everything I do just seems ...pointless.
Getting good grades, college, uni blah blah that’s the only thing I’m kinda (I feel) here for. I find it really difficult to imagine what I’d do if it weren’t for further education/ job. Because I feel like life :it’s all cliche and predictable.
And the more I think about life as a whole- it’s boring ...literally a repetitive **** cycle.
I’ll probably get people telling me to do something “fun”, alright let’s say I ‘did’. It’ll cause me (at most) momentary joy, then it back to my usual state of mind.
I have no idea if anything I have said makes any sense, it’s difficult to write about how I feel (gosh this is cringeworthy).
And no I’m not suicidal....
I just don’t understand why I have to be so.... pessimistic
... and the ones that won't