Today I was rejected for the SDIP - the Civil Service's Summer Internship Programme.
Naturally, having pinned so much of my hopes to this, I am devasteed, and too ashamed to comment publically.
I did everything I could. I was a brand ambassador, having completed the EDIP. I was so brave and spoke so positively of my experiences on the EDIP to a room full of 40 undergraduates. I even travelled the length of the country attending several careers fairs to help Fast Streamers out voluntarily.
I just feel so low about it all. Like the dream is over. It just gave me a bit of hope - now gone. I always dreamed of being a Civil Servant, but I just feel like that is over now.
I'm broke by the news.
I just want to cry.
When can you expect yours?