TLDR; **** scared to have a phone call with a guy i like. tried for 4 hrs on saturday but was reduced to tears twice. lol. i did it eventually but only spoke for 30 seconds, he was understanding but i feel like ****
He dm’d me about a month ago now on twitter, since then we just snapchat each other daily (faces so i know he’s not a catfish) and whatsapp. He really likes me and is so patient with me, he wants to have a phone call with me but i’m too afraid.
I tried the other day but spent literally 4 hours psyching myself up and calling my friends and sister to console me i ended up bursting into tears twice bc i hated how afraid i was. In the end, i called him but only spoke for like 30seconds. I was proud of myself and he sent me the cutest most reassuring message afterwards- he’s so understanding....
He’s heard my voice before though- when i’m drunk i don’t mean to but i send him voice notes on whatsapp 🤭🤦🏽*♀️🤦🏽*♀ ¸ one of them was 20minutes long ððin total all the voice notes would add up to like 50 ish minutes soo it helps that heâs at least heard my voice.
Itâs just so overwhelmingly hard, iâve gotten over sooooo much of my SA this year, coming to uni and all that but this is strange. I donât struggle with phone conversations at all- but iâm terrified to talk to him. We plan on meeting for the first time in 2 weeks so maybe itâs bc we havenât met ð¤·ð½*âï¸ð¤·ð½*âï¸
Any thoughts or opinions on what i should do ? Anyone experienced similar ?
Have you done any of these?