Hello, I'm new to medical school. When I was gining exams to get into the Uni I didn't truly want to be a doctor. I was in love with astrophysics. I wanted to be a physicist and then go abroad to get my master on astronomy and astrophysics. I talked about the future education with my parents and my teachers and they believed it was not plausible. Or at least, it wasn't worth it. In a country like mine, Greece, the financial crises stops us, the youth, from following what we truly want. But is that what I truly wanted? I couldn't know back then. I don't even know now. It turns out I had the capabilities to study and get into medical school. Had a lot of support and everyone was happy I was in. Great. I talked all summer with my friends about not truly wanting to be here. But I always thought, well, let's give it a shot. I like challenges, this could be one of them. I was in Alexandroupolis, a town in northern Greece for one month studying medicine. It took me 3 weeks to adjest. Then I had to leave to Patra, a southern town of Greece to study medicine, in order to not put an extra economical weight to my parents' shoulders. Here I am, 3 weeks later, now that I think i'm starting to adjust in the program, the teachers' attitude, the students' habbitualities, the routine. And I'm reaching to today. I have a dozen things on my mind about my future plans, my goals, my interests here. I found out I love what I have accomplished, and I love the fact that I'm in this school, and I right now want to get the most out of it, by trying the smartest and the hardest way to be a good student and simultaneously, a good teacher of myself, in order to become a good doctor, a good servant of humanity. This is my long-term ethical goal, and what will be driving me for the next 10 years. Now that I'm here in this University, I don't want to live that "perfect student life" everyone's been dreaming of when they decide to get to a university (that's what happens in Greece, I don't know about other countries). I don't want any romantic relationships, or new friends, or family bonding, or celebrating christmas, or playing video games. I want none of that. All I have on my ming is trying to learn and understand for knowledge itself and recognition to fill up my experiences and simultaneously my CV. Is this a wrong feeling? I cannot understand. Now, I didn't say that I'm antisocial. On the contrary. I go out at least twice a week with many friends. Some of my friends are confessing love to me and even though I like them, I just don't want a relationship. All I want is to try hard and smart for university, to get knowledge, experiences, grades, recognition and chances. To get a job and become independent. I feel like I want so much, but I feel like I have the power to achieve that. I know it may sound boring, cruel and non-ethical or non-human attitude for a person that will become a doctor, but that's the way I feel. That's my story. Time for questions. What do these thoughts make you feel? Are they wrong? Can I do anything to achieve perfection in university, now that it is my main goal? What can I do to be a good doctor? Generally tell me what you think about it.