I understand that I may come across as unappreciative, but hear me out...
I feel like I am always the one putting effort into everything, whilst she just coasts around kind of taking me for granted. I could explain many examples, but I am going to use just one.
Obviously yesterday was Christmas, and just a week before it was my birthday...and I feel like she didn't put much thought or effort into either. Firstly, on my birthday, she bought me a present for herself! She drinks Gin and tonic, and Bombay Sapphire Gin is her favourite. Well what a suprise when on the day of my birthday, she arrived at mine with a Waitrose bag, and inside it a bottle of Bombay Sapphire Gin, unwrapped. I can drink Gin, but it is far from what I would order at a bar out of choice, and I'm sure she knows that. In my mind, she bought it on her way to mine, to share with me... I felt a little dissapointed because for her birthday I had gone through a lot of effort and took her out for the day to the Beach and the Zoo and treated her all day, whereas for me, she just turns up with a carrier bag and an unwrapped bottle of her favourite drink, not even a card, and didn't make any effort in the evening such as when I cooked her favourite meal on the evening of hers.
Onto Christmas, I put thought into her gift and spent over budget to get her a really nice perfume that I knew she would love, and I paid for our Chistmas food and drink etc as we werw having Christmas around mine, just the 2 of us. For me, again, I made dinner on my own whilst she sat around and then when it came to exchanging gifts, I recieved an unwrapped 2018 calendar and a box of chocolates...it just felt like she didn't put any thought into it. I checked, and the calendar and chocolates came to £17, which considering she works full time and has more money than me whereas I am a self-sustaining student, compared to the £80 I saved for a while to afford her gift, it just seemed mismatched. I wouldn't pick at the money aspect if not for the fact that just last week she spent £60 on her hair, spends about £100 a month on makeup and often treats herself to luxuries.
This is just one example of how I feel she doesn't put effort into our relationship, and I am beginning to wonder whether I deserve better.