Is it just me?

Please tell me I'm not the only person who is afraid of dying, like I'm 14 and this thought has been appearing in my mind when I least want it and im so so scared of the thought that I'm never gonna exist. I go to church with my mum and they always talk about God but I don't know about it I wanna tell myself God is real and death is the next greatest adventure but I can't, I don't wantto die and I seriously think I need help I wake up in the middle of the night hyperventilating , I wanna hug my mum and dad tightly and tell them what im feeling but then what, because death it unfortunately gonna happen eventually so what r they gonna say to me because it certainly is not going to be alright. I don't really know tbh I've rabbled on so much and I just wanna know. Am I the only one who secretly thinks them death when the think deeply bout it and they scrap themselves at the thought odf being non-existent.