Crying every night due to low self esteem... Help

I hate myself. I really do. I don’t want to sound melodramatic but it’s been building up since I was twelve, I hate the way I look. I look at myself in the morning and I’m like wow, okay, why did God make something this ugly? I’m 15, currently in year 11, I’m filipino but I’m flat chested, I’ve got acne and back acne, and I’m 5ft1. What makes this worse? I have a younger sister who’s 9. She’s nearly tall as me, she’s developed her breasts already. I started at twelve and they haven’t grown since. I see all these girls in school who are year 8,9 etc and they look so mature and then you have me. I’ve gotten to the points where I contemplated hurting myself because of how I look. I’ve cried every night because I see those instagram points of people in my year who model and they look gorgeous. With GCSEs coming up soon my mental health is in a horrible state and I don’t know... I don’t know what to do. I’ve taken off my social medias but it doesn’t help that my parents constantly talk about how my little sister is going to the beautiful and model material when she’s older.

I hate myself. I really do. I don’t want to sound melodramatic but it’s been building up since I was twelve, I hate the way I look. I look at myself in the morning and I’m like wow, okay, why did God make something this ugly? I’m 15, currently in year 11, I’m filipino but I’m flat chested, I’ve got acne and back acne, and I’m 5ft1. What makes this worse? I have a younger sister who’s 9. She’s nearly tall as me, she’s developed her breasts already. I started at twelve and they haven’t grown since. I see all these girls in school who are year 8,9 etc and they look so mature and then you have me. I’ve gotten to the points where I contemplated hurting myself because of how I look. I’ve cried every night because I see those instagram points of people in my year who model and they look gorgeous. With GCSEs coming up soon my mental health is in a horrible state and I don’t know... I don’t know what to do. I’ve taken off my social medias but it doesn’t help that my parents constantly talk about how my little sister is going to the beautiful and model material when she’s older.

I hate myself. I really do. I don’t want to sound melodramatic but it’s been building up since I was twelve, I hate the way I look. I look at myself in the morning and I’m like wow, okay, why did God make something this ugly? I’m 15, currently in year 11, I’m filipino but I’m flat chested, I’ve got acne and back acne, and I’m 5ft1. What makes this worse? I have a younger sister who’s 9. She’s nearly tall as me, she’s developed her breasts already. I started at twelve and they haven’t grown since. I see all these girls in school who are year 8,9 etc and they look so mature and then you have me. I’ve gotten to the points where I contemplated hurting myself because of how I look. I’ve cried every night because I see those instagram points of people in my year who model and they look gorgeous. With GCSEs coming up soon my mental health is in a horrible state and I don’t know... I don’t know what to do. I’ve taken off my social medias but it doesn’t help that my parents constantly talk about how my little sister is going to the beautiful and model material when she’s older.