I’m a Year 12 student (third time around) and I’ve just been accepted into Bristol University to study a foundation year in arts and humanities before going onto a degree (most likely classics). I applied this year because I was unhappy with my sixth form situation and being so much older than my classmates. Bristol was one of many options for me and I didn’t really think I would be offered a place, but now it is real and I have to make a choice.
I'm really unsure for a few reasons. Firstly, I'm a carer, have been since I was a child. I'm worried about how my dad will cope with me being 100+ miles away most of the year, especially now his memory is starting to go and he needs more help than ever. Secondly, I’ve always been a very closed off person, and making friends is hard for me. I had a bad experience staying in my ex’s university accommodation (also in a Bristol location) and I'm not a fan of loud parties, drunk people or drugs, all 3 of which I know are pretty prevalent at Bristol accommodation. Thirdly, and to me the most concerning, I have mental health issues and I'm scared I just won’t cope. I've struggled with motivation and study skills for the last few years and I don’t want to waste a lecturers time, or any kind of money if I'm just not going to get it…
BUT I really do want a university experience and I just don’t feel like staying and completing my alevels with a bunch of kids… I'm so stuck and I have to make a decision pretty soon… HELP