Original post by LiyoSI'm sorry to hear you are having such a bad time. I can fully relate. I started a new job 2 weeks ago, and on Monday I will be having a chat with our HR department, telling them I need to move posts. I signed up to stay for 3 years, and like yourself, the prospect of working there for another 3 hours brings me out in a cold sweat. Sometimes, you can find yourself in a post, where, even with the best will in the world, it is just a bad fit.
It sounds to me like there are two things at play in your situation. The first one, is your lack of experience. You have no training, and no support, so no wonder you are sinking. If you haven't been taught what to do, you are bound to feel overwhelmed. So - point one - accept that this is not a failing on your part, it is the inevitable result of no training and no experience.
You need to go to your manager, and ask him/her to help you with this. Try and come up with a solution, rather than just going to them with complaints. For example - can you get a bit of on the job training? Can someone mentor you? Are there specific situations that you have difficulty with? Saying to your manager: "I'm struggling, and I need help" means that s/he will then have to step up, and do their job - which is helping you to do yours.
The second point is that when you have a stressful home life, that can enlarge even the smallest stresses elsewhere in your life. So - have you got the work situation in perspective? Is it really as overwhelming as it seems, in and or itself? Or are you going into work, already anxious and stressed out before you even start?
So what are your options here:
(1) ignore it - don't do this. It will only get worse.
(2) tackle it head on - approach your manager, alert him/her of the issues and remain solution focused. Start your sentences with "it would really help me if you could do this for me..." Don't get into blame, and don't speak from the heart. Speak from the head. "I want to do a good job here, and to be able to do that, I need you to..."
(3) if, after you speak to your boss, nothing improves, and you continue to feel like this, then quit. if you have genuinely tried to work things out, and nothing has changed, then there is no harm in walking away.
Remember - don't worry alone. the minute you tell someone your worries, you stop worrying, and start to problem solve.
Good luck!