I really want Adderall

I really want Adderall because it helps with confidence/social anxiety, but I feel like I might feel kinda guilty using it for this because it's kinda like, I need a drug to make me better socially (more flowy/confident/casual/talkative) and so it's not truly me? What do you think? Is it a legitimate tool to use or no?

Thanks : )

It depends on if you have a genuine need for it or not. If you don't then there's no point in even taking it, if you do though then it's kinda fixing something that wasn't right to start.
I take vitamins to stay functional cos my body doesn't absorb enough to do it itself. No need for me to feel guilty or anything about that cos it's not my fault and I'm just doing something to improve an issue that exists.
I took antidepressant at one point too cos my body and mind weren't freaking with things properly. At that time I had a problem that the medication could help with. The problem wasn't my fault and I couldn't just will it away, but I could use a thing to improve it. No need for me to feel guilty or weak for using something that could help me.

It's kinda like using a screwdriver to help you build a shelf. You can't do up the screws by hand, but using the screwdriver is still you doing it cos you're the one using it. Makes more sense to use the screwdriver to help you than to suffer with having nowhere to put your books.

Have a talk with your doctor about what your options are and if you would like to try it. If it doesn't feel right to you you can always decide to stop.

Have a talk with your doctor about what your options are and if you would like to try it. If it doesn't feel right to you you can always decide to stop.

Thank you and I really appreciate your analogy. The thing is, I haven't been diagnosed with social anxiety or anything and I don't know if I even have it, it's just that this drug will really help me with, for example, making friends. I currently don't have any friends and haven't for a while. I'm hoping this drug will help me to kinda open up more so that I can more easily connect with people and truly live life, as well as be how I was before my bout of depression 2 years ago, before which I wasn't as inhibited as I am now and showed my true personality to people more.

Thanks

Also, about talking to my doctor about trying it, is it likely for my doctor to give it to me if I just say that I want Adderall and say I want it for reasons other than what it's usually prescribed for - ADD/ADHD?

A lot of people abuse Adderall without needing it so i'm not sure if it's likely that my doctor will give it to me.