@Parliament @Doonesbury @threeportdrift and to everyone else who commented before, thank you for your kind words.
The exam is done now, but I feel so frustrated with myself because I know I could have done better. I just panicked on seeing the questions. I am still not quite sure what one of the questions I answered wanted of me, and I think my answer was pretty useless. It’s annoying because I now realise that I actually could have done one of the questions which I didn’t answer really well, but it was worded so confusingly that I was worried at the time that I may have misinterpreted it so I avoided it.
I think 2 of my 3 essays were ok but not good and I know I can write better but my mind went blank in the exam and I was panicked. The 3rd essay... Ugh. But, I don’t think I failed. The annoying thing is that yesterday’s exam was on my best subject. If I can’t do well in that paper, then I am doomed for the others.
I did not intend to dwell on what I wrote because at A levels I did this and ended up getting really upset about my exams for weeks after I sat them. But, the thoughts just keep popping into my head and making it hard to revise for the other papers. I am even more concerned about them now. The one on Monday is my worst subject too...
Sigh. Why can’t the topics which I have good ideas on come up? And why do the questions have to be put in such a way that I fly into a blind panic and don’t see what they are asking me? I am an idiot.
Sorry for the rant. Feel free to ignore. Just had to say that somewhere.
EDIT: Aaaand I just realised what that third question I answered was actually asking. Yep, I completely misinterpreted that. My answer was completely wrong in every way. Crap
what was that I said about thinking I hadn’t failed that paper? Yeah, maybe I spoke too soon.