Anyone else feel alone and lonely? I have no friends and no one to hang around, I do have 1 friend from college but we don't talk a lot and haven't started meeting up outside of college yet but making plans to, I recently lost my best friend and a guy I was talking to and they were my only friends, I was fine with that but now I have no one really, I seem to ruin all my friendships and relationships without meaning too, I know I'm not completely to blame as I've got involved with the wrong people and some people who just decided they wanted to use me for a bit to hang around with then just stop talking for no reason which also recently happened, I didn't really make any friends in college, they're all going to a party and didn't even invite me which hurt cause I feel like no one including family don't want me around, just makes me wonder why I still live apart from my pets who I am very close to and make me realise they're the only ones who want me around.
I don't have much hope for anything anymore, I was hoping to go to uni one day but I have no GCSE passes, I got bad grades, a few Us, D's, Fs and Es.*
I'm doing level 1 functional skills but doing badly at maths, English I'm fine with. I was hoping to go to uni one day and study Pyschology or criminology or both.
I'm just so sick of my bad mental health, loneliness, comparing myself to others, depression, anxiety, jealousy and anger - I have no learning difficulties but my mental health has had a negative effect on my education and holds me back rather than anything else, I've been told I'm capable of doing well but I don't always see or believe it, I just want to have friends, be happy, be in a relationship, have a job which I'm struggling to get, eventually travel, have an apartment and car and these are all out of reach atm, it's so hard to concentrate on education when you have 0 friends and that plays on your mind.*
What do I do?*
I also have barely any work experience, no one will even give me an interview, I'm not from a rich or middle class family, we don't have loads of money, enough to go on days out and holidays and things like that but not enough for me to be constantly asking for money, I'm 18 and want my own money and things.