I’m really sorry about this, i was once in your position and sometimes such thoughts still get to me. Being in a state of depression makes me angry as when i look at myself, i’m quite privileged and think of all the unpriviledged people who’d rather have such an opportunity. Anyway, i’m a big fan of Jordan Peterson who preaches that your mental state of mind is largely determined by your current hierarchical position in life. So my advice is, create a structure to your life, do something that you see an enduring reward to, and create relationships with people given that we are social animals. Its clear that life is suffering, but that doesn’t mean you should sit there and not do anything about it.