Maybe read some books that may direct a different positioning in your thought?
Could be an existential crisis? you are having troubles coping with the essence in life? try find something you enjoy, there is not really much else. If there is nothing you enjoy then let yourself be eaten into a sphere of darkness. Otherwise, transmute a sphere of thought in which the words you are constantly in practice invoking are one's that carry purpose, a sense of excitement and ecstacy. To which the acts are followed on through this process, that way you can begin to do things you enjoy in connection to those words.
I.e. occupying yourself with the stars, that way you can submit yourself to calling forth their unique presence through learning about them and doing things in which you can get closer to learning about them such as a telescope.
You can depend on others for some form of advise or guidance, but ultimately you are the one to take action.
Hope that helps.