Having a bad day.

Anon just so my boyfriend won't see this if he reads through my posts. people on here will probably know who I am anyway.

in my last relationship I had miscarried a child that I wanted to keep. I know it probably worked out for the best since i'm still very young and not with the father any more but today would have been it's third birthday. and I forgot.

There just seem to be so many problems in my life at the moment that I can't even keep track of one day in a year.

Thing is, my life at the moment is the best it's been since I was about 12 and although i'm happy overall and I appreciate everything that I have I can't get rid of this heavy feeling. Then something like this comes along and it feels like everything is falling down on me.

And on top of that I get accused of making up the abuse I went through just because I don't feel the need to hide it from everyone all the time. It's just so tiring.

I don't know what to do with myself today. I want to do something special, but i have no idea what. and a minutes silence just doesn't feel right. I know it sounds silly but I just want a hug from someone in my family, and nobody's here. last year I planted a flower but i'm in the city and there's nowhere to do that.

I know most of that was really necessary but I just wanted to get it out. but to the point, what do other people do for stuff like this? how do you commemorate something/someone?

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Anonymous #2

I wish I could come and give you a hug...

This might be a strange idea, but if the weather's decent, you could buy some bubble mix, and blow some bubbles and watch them fly.

Don't kick yourself for forgetting. I forgot something kind of similar earlier this year and felt awful about it... don't let it be about the fact that you forgot, because you've remembered now.