I’m stuck in a rut, today I was offered a place to study Adult Nursing (my dream) from Kingston Uni, the only issue is I have 2 years of funding left.
I applied for CPR last year and was granted, but it was a decision made when not entirely in my right mind to attend the course I chose. I don’t want to disclose my illness but it features making choices in a split second with no idea of consequences when unmedicayed.
I was granted CPR for the year 2015/2016 - I studied a Health and Social Care degree (again with health professions, I was hoping to transfer to the unis nursing course in what would be my second year!) as during this time I was hospitalised for 4 days at a time - 4 separate times for suicide attempts. I was then admitted to a mental health ward for 2 weeks to evaluate me; and then my Grandfather died very unexpectedly at age 56 and I lived with him.
From 2016/2017 I would consider my ‘recovery year’ - I was still not in my right mind but placed on anti depressants which react very badly with me as my condition wasn’t really written down. I couldn’t give my all due to my mental health and I was still reeling from the pain and breakdown of the previous year - someone should have stopped me from going but no one was really fit to make any decisions back then.
2017/2018 is what I’m looking to claim CPR for. I was still on this incorrect medication and far away from home, it began to really take a toll on my mind and resulted in such severe paranoia that I would get stabbed the second I left my flat that I secluded myself entirely, drew out maps of safest routes and thought up every plan to not get stabbed. I was depressed, losing weight rapidly and refusing to take the wrong medication any longer until my family stepped in and brought me home. I had a meeting with the mental health nurse in May, and was immediately sent to the consultant. I was absolutely unable to complete that year due to such poor mental health. I can get a doctors note confirming that I was unwell,
Visited mental health practitioners and was put on Haloperidol (anti psychotic) around the end of the year.
I am now on the correct medication and it’s like I can see through this horrible dog that’s plagued me for years; I remember what it was like to function now - and to make real andninformed decisions!
Due to the fact I have had to claim CPR once , will it affect my claim or lower my chances on getting the extra year? After so long of suffering I don’t want to watch my life go down the drain and give up on the real dream I’ve had that’s been hidden behind lack of capacity! (Imho)