The title isn’t meant to be edgy or anything it’s just a genuine concern I have. I’ll attempt to keep it simple and short but I will provide more detail if anyone asks. So since last year I’ve lost literally all motivation in everything, school, intrests, friends and I’ve started to detach myself from them. I’m not meaning to do this but I feel as if every day I’m in some sort of dream like state where I’m just watching everything. I slowly start forgetting and losing intrest in those things. Its like im numb, its the only way to describe it, I’ve lost feelings too along with my motivation. Empathy, grief and sadness are all gone, recently my grandfather passed away and I felt nothing, it really messed me up because I didn’t know what was wrong with me, its human nature to feel sad after a passing but I didn’t. I don’t know why but I felt nothing. Even before his passing I felt like that, an empty shell of my former self, So I started taking to extreme measures. Then I started drinking, and taking drugs because it all made me feel alive. I finally had something to live for. I all regret it now but that sudden rush of adrenaline, relaxation or happiness made me forget the emptiness. I’m trying everything, better diet, exercise and I have triple the amount of friends than I did before which should all help, but it didn’t. I’m sorry if this seems long or edgy but I really want answers.