Update 4, week 3
It feels like so long since I lastposted! Thought I'd do this now seeing as I'm too out of it to do anything else. I feel so so ill so apologies for any typos. Think I've got rid of them all.
Last week was a long week. I pretty much slept the whole weekend which I really needed, Monday was hard work but the rehearsals I needed to get to at home (and the uni) were really good. And I got to see doggy! I was reasonably productive there too. Wednesday I came back and again was pretty productive then it all kind of crashed. But I had half a week I guess.
Mental health since then has just been a bit rubbish, and random. Hopefully I'm just too tired,who knows. I really need a break but oh well, that's not happening. Physically I've been a bit better, IBS has finally settled enough that I can actually keep food inside me without ridiculous pain at least. God knows what was up with that. Saw my GP but failed to tell him anything useful as per, he kind of got the message about physical stuff but just can't do anything. Which is crap. Really struggling with the idea that I might be like this forever, on the one hand I'm way better than I was a few years ago (or manage myself better) and so so much better than an awful lot of people with CFS etc, but it's so ****ing hard. I guess I just have to live with it as best I can but I really don't deal well with the unknown and not being able to make plans.
Anyway, enough of that rant. Socially I've actually been doing so much better
since the start of the year I've been chatting to people, sitting with them and feeling (mostly) comfortable, not running away the second stuff ends so I don't have to speak to people. This is huge for me!! I'm comfortably on the edge of two groups and I'm quite happy with that. No I'm not really close to any of them or meet/really talk to them outside of anything, but I can actually sort of say I have friends. So let's end this on a higher note
Targets from last week. The home one I definitely completed all parts of which is good. I haven't read through all the journal articles, I'm really struggling with that. I have done one and a half though and the third one looks a bit easier even if I can't get my head round the second. I do need to go back and scribble some ideas down though. GP I did, if not very well. I got more meds at least as I'd forgotten to do that, and had my flu jab (
- do the two online tests, or at least the one that has a concrete due date I can't miss
- go to mentoring (DSA) and actually try and talk to her
- finish those ridiculous articles and work out what I can do with them. I find reading so hard
- do the gig (why do I agree to these things) and see a Cavy! And possibly my sister
- catch up on any missed lectures (ie the one I'm skipping now)
- not die in the process, I have so much to do :/
Sorry for the long update!
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