Weeks 10 and 11Sorry for lack of update last week
it got so late I figured I may as well wait for this one, and just didn't have the energy.
Week 10 I had my lab on the monday morning in which I tried to catch up on some of the stats and data preparation stuff the rest of the class had done the week before. I worked slowly but did get some done, despite really not feeling great. On the Tuesday I missed an optional lecture I had actually intended/needed to go to, but then had mentoring. She commented on how rubbish I looked and I said I was going home straight after so yeah. My mum came and went and I chucked some stuff in a bag/did the washing up and she took me home. The rest of the week was basically just resting. I finished the stats stuff off at some point and caught up on a lecture but think that was about it workwise. My boyfriend came up for the weekend which was lovely, my mum fed us lots and we watched paddington cus he hadn't seen it (the only film ever I had and him not probably!). Then I came back up here sunday afternoon/evening.
Going home helped, it means I can hopefully get to the end of the term which I really wouldn't have otherwise. It's mostly just meant I've felt worse this week, I missed a lot too in the almost week I was away. Monday I felt absolutely awful, I made it to the lab but just stared into space for most of it. There was a social I wanted to go to monday night but didn't get there. Tuesday I had mentoring again and we talked through getting an extension on my lab report, and my plan for exams. I really want to try and sit them, it feels a shame not to after all this work. So I'm going to give them a go I think, or at least the first two then the last one I'll have to see. Once I got home and I thought about it all a bit more I realised it might be better to ask for the lab report to be deferred to next term. I hadn't even started it and didn't know when I was going to. It came down to that I was either going to really push myself to get it done at the expense of my health and all of my exams, or do that. So after seeing the disability team and my tutor that's what i'm going to do. It hasn't been officially confirmed yet but I'm very relieved.
That's pretty much been my week, with a few minor breakdowns along the way. My lectures thursday and friday were cancelled thankfully, I did go to the seminar on wednesday which was helpful even if I didn't participate much. I've got a lot better idea of what's expected in the exams now. I also saw my GP which was actually pretty helpful for once, got some rescue meds to deal with a couple of my symptoms which have been really bothering me the last few weeks. Hopefully they help once I actually drag myself to the pharmacy to pick them up! I pulled out a concert I was meant to do tonight so I could try and get through the one tomorrow and the rest of the week. Today itself ended up insanely stressful which I won't go into on here, but I am quite proud of how I handled it and very grateful to my parents, boyfriend and uni support staff for helping me get through it.
Sorry for the long and slightly jumbled update! tl;dr I've really not been particularly well physically or mentally, but been doing my best to look after myself where I can. New targets for THE LAST WEEK OF TERM are:
- do stuff tomorrow but try not to kill myself in the process
- possibly have a go at the online test if I feel like it tomorrow night (yeah right... they take your best four out of five so it's not the end of the world. I wanted to get it done as the last one's likely to be harder but that just hasn't happened this week)
- do what I can for exam on wednesday and for the rearranged test I missed last week
- try get to at least one christmassy or social thing, even if it's not for very long
Hope everyone's okay, thank you for all your support on here as always and outside for those of you there. Let me know if you want removing from the taglist at any point, it's getting long now!
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