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I'll try and keep this as short as possible...
I applied for 2017 entry to go to Loughborough University, but I got ABC instead of AAB so got rejected. I took a gap, redone a levels, reapplied and got into University of Leeds, for 2018 entry...My mental health isn't great - bad anxiety and fluctuating depression since 2015, along with some personal issues, but I thought university would help me push through and grow, but it sadly done the opposite.

I moved to Leeds on the 19th, first few days went well but ended up missing every single one of my induction lectures, barely going out for freshers, struggling to meet new people etc. My accommodation at Leeds was a 40 minute walk from campus / 15 min bus, both which I were too anxious to do. I didn't eat, and had quite concerning thoughts which I acted upon, so moved back to London yesterday. I knew my anxiety was bad but not to this extent.

I'm now home, and my aim is too head back to the doctors, for therapy or even medication, with the hope that I can go to university next year when I'm healthy and more stable. University has always been something I've been very serious about and I have always wanted to go, I really don't want my mental health to get in the way. I'm going to apply to Bristol, Nottingham, Warwick, Loughborough (Most of which are campus unis which I've established are more benefial for someone like me) and then Queen Marys or Royal Holloway, just incase when it comes to firming a uni, I don't feel happy to live out.

I worry that university may not be for me (even though I strongly feel I need to just take time out to get my head together). Academically I feel it is, but the whole atmosphere was just overwhelming. I'm also really devastated that I'm on a gap year as it is my second one and not ideal. I have a job in tesco that I will be returning to, but does anyone have any idea what else I can actually do? Travelling will be good, once I have my head together... I want to do something educational but I'm not sure what. Also, please don't reply saying I didn't give it a chance etc. I won't go into detail but I was in a concerning state, and it was physically safer for me to come home...

Thank you!
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Hello everyone

I'll try and keep this as short as possible...
I applied for 2017 entry to go to Loughborough University, but I got ABC instead of AAB so got rejected. I took a gap, redone a levels, reapplied and got into University of Leeds, for 2018 entry...My mental health isn't great - bad anxiety and fluctuating depression since 2015, along with some personal issues, but I thought university would help me push through and grow, but it sadly done the opposite.

I moved to Leeds on the 19th, first few days went well but ended up missing every single one of my induction lectures, barely going out for freshers, struggling to meet new people etc. My accommodation at Leeds was a 40 minute walk from campus / 15 min bus, both which I were too anxious to do. I didn't eat, and had quite concerning thoughts which I acted upon, so moved back to London yesterday. I knew my anxiety was bad but not to this extent.

I'm now home, and my aim is too head back to the doctors, for therapy or even medication, with the hope that I can go to university next year when I'm healthy and more stable. University has always been something I've been very serious about and I have always wanted to go, I really don't want my mental health to get in the way. I'm going to apply to Bristol, Nottingham, Warwick, Loughborough (Most of which are campus unis which I've established are more benefial for someone like me) and then Queen Marys or Royal Holloway, just incase when it comes to firming a uni, I don't feel happy to live out.

I worry that university may not be for me (even though I strongly feel I need to just take time out to get my head together). Academically I feel it is, but the whole atmosphere was just overwhelming. I'm also really devastated that I'm on a gap year as it is my second one and not ideal. I have a job in tesco that I will be returning to, but does anyone have any idea what else I can actually do? Travelling will be good, once I have my head together... I want to do something educational but I'm not sure what. Also, please don't reply saying I didn't give it a chance etc. I won't go into detail but I was in a concerning state, and it was physically safer for me to come home...

Thank you!

I have bad social anxiety and depression. I had it from 16 to the present date, so over a decade. I didn't have a university 'experience'. I simply turned up every now and again and stayed at home. Graduated with a first but completely wasted the experience. I'm enrolled on a masters and have been doing the same... I've never joined any clubs or societies. Never been clubbing in my life. I go to a running club twice a week but my social anxiety ruins that too in a large part. I think people generally consider me aloof, agressive and unfriendly.

I'm not sure how to improve social anxiety. I think the fact you already have a job is a big thing. That is a good way to socialise with customers and staff. In the past I forced myself to go to meetup groups and other things but I always ended up being alone a lot of the time. I think you should aim to be around people and try not to isolate yourself. SSRIs etc are an option but might not be necessary.
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That's okay. Why don't you apply to a University close to home - where you can commute.

I find it helps anxiety by having a safe space free from lectures and other disturbances.
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I have bad social anxiety and depression. I had it from 16 to the present date, so over a decade. I didn't have a university 'experience'. I simply turned up every now and again and stayed at home. Graduated with a first but completely wasted the experience. I'm enrolled on a masters and have been doing the same... I've never joined any clubs or societies. Never been clubbing in my life. I go to a running club twice a week but my social anxiety ruins that too in a large part. I think people generally consider me aloof, agressive and unfriendly.

I'm not sure how to improve social anxiety. I think the fact you already have a job is a big thing. That is a good way to socialise with customers and staff. In the past I forced myself to go to meetup groups and other things but I always ended up being alone a lot of the time. I think you should aim to be around people and try not to isolate yourself. SSRIs etc are an option but might not be necessary.

Thank you for your reply, I'm sorry to hear about your challenging experience but I'm so happy you've come out with a first and are pursuing a masters!

I agree, I think the best thing for me would to deffo be around people. Do you think reapplying and probably living out at uni would be better once I've had a year out and seeked help? its hard to say, but do you think its worth trying a uni such as Bristol / Nottingham seeing as I really would hope to stay out?
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