I need urgent help
Ok. This is personal.
I hate myself. Not for attention not to be edgy but because I do. I look at myself and want to start over. I feel like my life is going no where
and that I have no hope in the future.
I don't love anything. I look at my family and friends and feel nothing, not an inch of love or caring or nothing. I feel dead and numb inside.
I hate going to the doctors so won't go to get checked. It started off
as a game, how many times can I put myself down. But then it got
darkI bully myself 24/7. Even if I'm called pretty I feel like they are lying
and are saying it to take the mick.
I'm scared of how cynical I am. I put everything down, I can't look at
something and see beauty. I think of "oh it will die soon", "Nothing is
worth anything", "how many people suffered because of this" or "I'm
not worth it". It really gets me down, all I think of when I'm near my
friends is how they pretend to like me for a joke but actually hate me.
Someone please help, I feel alone and I'm scared that soon I'll end up physically alone becuase I don't love anything.
I hate myself. Not for attention not to be edgy but because I do. I look at myself and want to start over. I feel like my life is going no where
and that I have no hope in the future.
I don't love anything. I look at my family and friends and feel nothing, not an inch of love or caring or nothing. I feel dead and numb inside.
I hate going to the doctors so won't go to get checked. It started off
as a game, how many times can I put myself down. But then it got
darkI bully myself 24/7. Even if I'm called pretty I feel like they are lying
and are saying it to take the mick.
I'm scared of how cynical I am. I put everything down, I can't look at
something and see beauty. I think of "oh it will die soon", "Nothing is
worth anything", "how many people suffered because of this" or "I'm
not worth it". It really gets me down, all I think of when I'm near my
friends is how they pretend to like me for a joke but actually hate me.
Someone please help, I feel alone and I'm scared that soon I'll end up physically alone becuase I don't love anything.
There is only so I can do to help you. I would recommend you to talk you friend even though you think they don’t like you , just talk to them they may be able to guide you. What makes you think they hate you ? They gave off certain vibe?
Physically you have got your family and friends to support even thought you may not feel they love you
Physically you have got your family and friends to support even thought you may not feel they love you
It just a little voice in my head that says it. I don't know why. I will talk to someone about I'm scared they will judge and that I'm the only one who is going through this. I'm also really fed up of the whole "it's just hormones" when it isn't hormones.
Original post by Anonymous
Ok. This is personal.
I hate myself. Not for attention not to be edgy but because I do. I look at myself and want to start over. I feel like my life is going no where
and that I have no hope in the future.
I don't love anything. I look at my family and friends and feel nothing, not an inch of love or caring or nothing. I feel dead and numb inside.
I hate going to the doctors so won't go to get checked. It started off
as a game, how many times can I put myself down. But then it got
darkI bully myself 24/7. Even if I'm called pretty I feel like they are lying
and are saying it to take the mick.
I'm scared of how cynical I am. I put everything down, I can't look at
something and see beauty. I think of "oh it will die soon", "Nothing is
worth anything", "how many people suffered because of this" or "I'm
not worth it". It really gets me down, all I think of when I'm near my
friends is how they pretend to like me for a joke but actually hate me.
Someone please help, I feel alone and I'm scared that soon I'll end up physically alone becuase I don't love anything.
I hate myself. Not for attention not to be edgy but because I do. I look at myself and want to start over. I feel like my life is going no where
and that I have no hope in the future.
I don't love anything. I look at my family and friends and feel nothing, not an inch of love or caring or nothing. I feel dead and numb inside.
I hate going to the doctors so won't go to get checked. It started off
as a game, how many times can I put myself down. But then it got
darkI bully myself 24/7. Even if I'm called pretty I feel like they are lying
and are saying it to take the mick.
I'm scared of how cynical I am. I put everything down, I can't look at
something and see beauty. I think of "oh it will die soon", "Nothing is
worth anything", "how many people suffered because of this" or "I'm
not worth it". It really gets me down, all I think of when I'm near my
friends is how they pretend to like me for a joke but actually hate me.
Someone please help, I feel alone and I'm scared that soon I'll end up physically alone becuase I don't love anything.
That 'little voice' and feeling of emptiness is usually depression. No cure for that ****.
Original post by Anonymous
Ok. This is personal.
I hate myself. Not for attention not to be edgy but because I do. I look at myself and want to start over. I feel like my life is going no where
and that I have no hope in the future.
I don't love anything. I look at my family and friends and feel nothing, not an inch of love or caring or nothing. I feel dead and numb inside.
I hate going to the doctors so won't go to get checked. It started off
as a game, how many times can I put myself down. But then it got
darkI bully myself 24/7. Even if I'm called pretty I feel like they are lying
and are saying it to take the mick.
I'm scared of how cynical I am. I put everything down, I can't look at
something and see beauty. I think of "oh it will die soon", "Nothing is
worth anything", "how many people suffered because of this" or "I'm
not worth it". It really gets me down, all I think of when I'm near my
friends is how they pretend to like me for a joke but actually hate me.
Someone please help, I feel alone and I'm scared that soon I'll end up physically alone becuase I don't love anything.
I hate myself. Not for attention not to be edgy but because I do. I look at myself and want to start over. I feel like my life is going no where
and that I have no hope in the future.
I don't love anything. I look at my family and friends and feel nothing, not an inch of love or caring or nothing. I feel dead and numb inside.
I hate going to the doctors so won't go to get checked. It started off
as a game, how many times can I put myself down. But then it got
darkI bully myself 24/7. Even if I'm called pretty I feel like they are lying
and are saying it to take the mick.
I'm scared of how cynical I am. I put everything down, I can't look at
something and see beauty. I think of "oh it will die soon", "Nothing is
worth anything", "how many people suffered because of this" or "I'm
not worth it". It really gets me down, all I think of when I'm near my
friends is how they pretend to like me for a joke but actually hate me.
Someone please help, I feel alone and I'm scared that soon I'll end up physically alone becuase I don't love anything.
For a second it felt like I was looking in the mirror when reading this. I have so much to say, but simultaneously so little. Maybe you should seek professional help.
Best,
