Quitting Medicine Watch
Im in my second year and I'm contemplating on leaving Medicine. I really don't know where to begin. Before I started Medicine, I was dead set on it as a career and during the application process I began to doubt myself and I did speak to other professionals E.g pharms/optoms
But they didnt appeal to me. I did the work experience and sent a week shadowing doctors and I really enjoyed it. The doctors, on the other hand, said how they weren't enjoying it and wished they did something else.
I guess since I started uni, I didn't really settle in and found it difficult to adjust and make friends. That has improved since I started. Academically I've been doing well and its tough but I have passed comfortably.
I finding it really difficult to keep on top of the work this semester as the difficulty has increased.
A part of me is scared of actually being a doctor, the amount of responsibility and the amount of moving around and instability involved. I dont know if my MH has played a part in this and I havent been feeling too great. Has anyone else been in the same position and what advice would you give?
I really dont know whether its worth dropping out and doing a different general degree like biology or going into Law as I enjoyed it at A Level.
That's not to say I haven't enjoyed Medicine but I'm finding it really hard and there are days where I wish I took a gap yr out before uni to suss things out before rushing into a life long career
From me experience, this is quite a common thing to feel, especially in pre-clinical years when the workload and difficulty of the course ramps up. It sounds to me your biggest issues are keeping up with the workload, and beign scared of the responsibility you'll have once you graduate. All that really matters is if you still have the passion to still do medicine, I mean, you applied because part of you wants to help others right? If that's still there, then my advice would be to keep on keeping on, and work hard to maintain your grades/whatever until clinical years which are a totally different experience to years 1&2. You might find that you're very passionate about the practical, clinical stuff involving real patients which could completely change your opinion around. Plus getting some clinical experience might quell the feeling of this massive responsibility you'll have, because you'll actually know what to do about certain conditions, so it becomes less daunting.
Regardless, you should focus on your mental health, and have a good supportive social life because I'm sure others at your uni are feeling/have felt the same way at some point, so talking through this stuff might help. All I'm saying is, 1st & 2nd years aren't representative of medicine, and definitely not representative of being a doctor.
Idk if I just rambled on, but I hope this helps you in finding your way.
And do discuss this with your tutor/advisor. They will definitely have some advice, especially if they are from a non-medical background. They can also signpost you to your university's support services.
Hang in there buddy.
If you are distressed for other reasons (making friends, workload, etc) then - yes - seek advice from tutors and welfare staff. Just don't feel trapped in medicine because you aren't...