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I am a male and I hate myself I feel trapped in my own body. I hate leaving the house due to my appearance issues. I am such a ugly guy on top of that I am very short and don't feel like a man at all. I also have a ostomy bag which adds to my body image issues that I have as a guy. I feel so stupid in my class I am probably the dumbest and whenever the teacher asks me question I struggle and my brain can't process any information I feel so inferior compared to others. Women purposely avoid eye contact with me in public because they can't bare to look at my face I don't blame them I probably ruin their day with my ugly face. Whenever I am about to go on the bus because I can't stand my appearance and my anxiety takes over I tend to call someone just to be on the phone for a short period of time until I go and sit on the bus. I hate going to the corner shop because I think I look hideous. To sum myself up I am a ugly short untalented dumb loser. I will never accomplish anything in my life. I'm sorry if this post is very long just needed to get this of my chest.
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hey, looking pretty and ugly in this world is not true. It is based on people's opinions, and opinions are not facts. Okay, maybe people may stare at you and so forth, but remember this even if they do and they negatively have an impact they are just words okay not the truth. You are beautiful, okay you are just not the same as everyone else and that is my definition of beautiful because you stand out of the crowd. Live your life to please yourself not others, nobody I MEAN NOBODY can make everyone happy. I hope this has made you feel better...
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if getting this off of your chest feels good, consider making it a regular thing. A counsellor / therapist is gonna help you feel better about it and they don't know you personally so they won't judge/ tell people you know etcetc, plus they give really unbiased opinions and it's up to yo to take it or leave it.
Also, idk how much of this you're going to believe or if it's even worth me saying it but you're never ever going to stop thinking this way about yourself unless you want to and you have to put the effort in to work on your self confidence and esteem. It's very very hard work but one morning you'll wake up looking and feeling like a million bucks, ready to go to a job you love, to see colleagues you have fun with, and you'll be so so glad you took the steps you did to get where you did. Only you can do this to yourself. And it's not out of reach like it may look to you. Anyway yeah i really hope you take some of this away with you and don't just leave it as a post on this website lol
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I feel for you. I know I'm ugly as hell. My hair is bland, the way I speak is cussed about, and I'm a white boy trapped inside an Asian body. Because my parents have polar opposite origins, and I don't see the Asian (IDK?) side of my family anyway for over 15 years now. My interests and personality are just weird. Like what teenage boy doesn't like Anime, Football or Fortnite in 2018? Got no problems diagnosed, and recently started studying 3 A Levels pretty standardly. I've had enough over the years.

My anxiousness comes around people I see everyday like in school and college, knowing how much they judge me over my personality, the way I act and speak and how little they know about me due to my fished up interests. I'm mainly left by myself on a bench looking like a vulnerable hobo. That, and miserably walking up random side streets. My family hates me for the fact I've got little to no friends; I've got to cover up so much and it makes me feel ****.

From what you've written, I've got 2 peices of advice:
1) Don't worry about the ostomy bag. I didn't quite know what one was myself, but we all have our own health problems, and most people are very accepting of that. Don't mark yourself down based on it.

2) Normally when I go out, I don't normally worry about going corner shops and walking on buses. It's likely the only time you'll ever see a particular person in general, and they'll forgot and not know who you are very easily once they walk way. You are not forced to socialise and make friends with people at corner shops and on buses, so why worry what a stranger thinks when you have nothing to do with them. As long as you don't cause havoc and do crime (extremes), the corner shops would rather your business, money and loyalty over your personality.
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