I am not sure if I am going home for Christmas yet, I don't like being around my father since he is emotionally abusive and with it being Christmas leave he is around more. But I do want to see my parent but just not him :/
Thinking about Christmas just reminds me what a pile of **** my family is.
I don't know if I belong in here because I feel like people have worse problems, but I'm not looking forward to it this year. My parents split up 4 years ago and for some reason still try to play happy families at Christmas, so we all still get together as a family of 6, but I just think it feels awkward as anything. Christmas used to be amazing.
Also, my partner and I just want to spend Christmas together, but because of circumstances we can't do that. So I'm upset about that as well.
I have too much work to do before I finish for Christmas, and at the moment it feels like I won't get it finished at all.
Everything just feels "wrong", and the complete opposite to what I think Christmas should feel like. I struggle with anxiety and depression anyway, and the fact that Christmas doesn't feel the same anymore just brings me down so much more. Even though I'm not alone, I do feel lonely. I have an idea in my head of what Christmas should be (it always was like that before my parents split up, it was just amazing) and the fact that it isn't like that anymore - yet somehow everyone else seems to be having a great time - really messes with my head and just makes me feel alone, even if I'm not alone physically.
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