Hi,
When i was in school there was a drinking (water) place in the common room. I would be scared of entering the room as the water section was on the other side of the room. I would force my self to do it and then get out and sit in a quiet room just with a few other people. In class i could not look up i would just stare at my book, i would not say anthing. Classes had alot of talking. At uni im in a kitchen and i dont look at the people chatting ever just walk by get my food and leave back to my room, i dont even know there names. I need alcholol to numb everything seomtimes and the way i am. i feel uncomortable sitting around a table with family. Most times i go out to eat with outside family i end up crying because it becomes to much for me.
Personally i can get on with this kind of life, whats wrong with me?
In certain situations im ok and confident but when there are social aspects i become very aware and anxious of everything. This has been happening for over 3 years. I have no friends. what do i do do i just have to live with this?