Okay, quick update after Christmas. The good news is that I'm not dead, or failing, or infected with rabies from touching stray dogs. The slightly less opptimistic news is that I have had a difficult past few days (mostly because of breakdowns, especially in the evenings - irrationally blaming myself for unfortunate events among people I know, breaking down, being desperate for reassurance, acting on my compulsions...). I did manage to get some work done when I could though.
With History, I've done a reasonable amount of notes on Henry VII's consolidation of power, and I'm halfway through Henry VIII's foreign policy. The mock exam is on the 9th of Jan, and I have about 5 days free out of around a week that I have left of the winter holidays. I am not entirely sure where I am going to fit in studying about the rest of HVII, HVIII, Edward and Mary - but I'll sort something out! I think? Frankly, I have no clue but I guess it'll have to be studying one ruler per day.
This morning I was trying to do English coursework. The good thing is that I've decided what I want to, which is plan out my essay again for the next draft. The blocks of text of my first draft are incredibly overwhelming and make me procrastinate because the words seem to swim on my screen - not making actual sense, let alone forming a coherent A* essay. Then looking at all the markschemes and exemplar answers terrifies me even more because I then want to start all over again and build up the "perfect essay" - I mean at a ridiculous level, where I would go and read all of George Eliot's books to form an opinion of her canon and then begin to write my comparison essay on Middlemarch and Brick Lane (I'm not giving into you Perfectionism OCD!). I didn't actually get any work properly done in the morning, so I'm here now trying to catch up - except I promised myself to catch up after I did my TSR GYG update. So yes, now I'm going to do some coursework for 2 hours, not get worked up about perfection, just clarifying the ideas and then getting them done.
UPDATE: I did not get any work done that evening. The reason was that I got stuck researching Victorian conventions of marriage and obsessing over whether I need to cite it or not. So much for "not getting worked up about perfection"! I'm trying again today (28/12/2018). This time I am going to use Pomodoro timing to ensure I don't get carried away with one thing for hours.
Thanks for reading!
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