Urm. I was thinking about this, this morning.
I'd care much less if my parents didn't know that I wanted to apply. My mum has properly gotten her knickers in a twist about it now.
I know I'd be very happy, maybe even happier at my other two top choices. I'd still feel really crap though. In a 'well if you couldn't succeed in this how on earth do you expect to fulfill your other ambitions' kind of way.