(Original post by quinq)
So, this is a v long story, but here's the tl;dr first:
I had a very serious mental health crisis in the autumn term, made some awful decisions, and plagiarised some work. I had a meeting, admitted it fully and suspended myself for a year to work on my mental health. They're now expelling me.
So the long version:
I have C-PTSD. Last term, **** happened, and I spent the whole 8 weeks in a dissociative state with no idea what I was doing, completely incapable of proper work, etc. This lead to some atrocious decision making, including getting some Greek from the internet rather than doing it myself. I had a disciplinary hearing for this and admitted it fully, even though I didn't remember it at all. During that hearing, I agreed to have all my work thenceforth checked for plagiarism, and all my work from that term. They asked me if there were any other instances of plagiarism that term and I tried to explain that I wasn't aware of any, but I had huge gaps in my memory and awareness. They took this as me saying, unequivocally "this didn't happen in any other case" which I can't possibly assert.
Then, after that meeting, I met with my doctor and agreed I would suspend for health reasons. I couldn't have done that before the meeting as if I had, I wouldn't have been allowed to attend the meeting as suspended students aren't allowed on college grounds at Oxford. It also meant I wasn't allowed to make a defence explicitly on the grounds of my mental health during the meeting - I had to leave it in vague terms like "I don't recall that day" or "I was experiencing high stress and upsetting memories" rather than "I was completely dissociated" and "I was in a hyperrealistic flashback"
After the meeting, they gave me their decision, and the tutor for undergrads said some horrid things, including "I don't care for student welfare" and said he wanted to expel me, and was barely outvoted. He said I wasn't the kind of student they accept at the college and not the kind of student they keep. They also sent round a document detailing the meeting that I had to either sign or be expelled. This was explicit. I was not allowed to make any edits or disagree with anything they said happened in the meeting.
So, I got an email from the ******* tutor for undergrads today saying they found more evidence of plagiarism and will be meeting in 2 weeks to discuss it. He also said "we stressed the importance of honesty to Quin. He stated unequivocally that there were no other instances of plagiarism, and agreed that he would be expelled from the College if any were discovered." This isn't true. But sadly, you're not allowed a witness in these meetings so it's his word against mine.
So, I have a report from my psychiatrist saying I can't be held accountable for my actions last term because I was in such mental distress that my actions were not conscious or my own. I sent this to the aforementioned tutor, and he said he would read it at the meeting, but "wanted to stress that post hoc arguments are not admissible." I'm not allowed to attend the meeting, nor to send anyone on my behalf.
So, I'm gonna be expelled. Once they decide this, I can appeal to the governing body of the university but there has never been a successful appeal.
What are my options now? If I apply to another university, will they know I was expelled from Oxford? Will they care?