Hey, so I’ve been with my boyfriend for over a year and I really love him. A lot. He’s bisexual and I’ve always thought that was cool and made sure he knows I support him. Yesterday he told me he feels guilty about thinking about guys. I told him he should’nt feel guilty and stuff, but he said ‘it’s like in my heart I want you, but I can’t help thinking what it’s like to try other things.’ That really f*cked with my head. I’ve been rlly low all day, and I didn’t sleep well. I just know I can’t help, and feel like I’m trapping him. He said it wasn’t what he meant and that he would never regret being with me and stuff, but it’s just one of those things I’m not going to forget.
Another thing, is that he’s really sporty. He goes on runs all the time, and asked if I want to do a park run with him, I said yes because I figured I don’t want to be the person who doesn’t at least give stuff a shot. He knows I’m bad at running, and said he’ll help me train. But I just feel embarrassed, he said to me as a joke ‘who are all the biscuits?’ And then ‘we’ll see who’s fat when we go for this run’. So I got upset about that too, and he apologised. He said we should get fit together as our New Years resolution, and to be honest, I think I’m fine. I’m 5’8 and 8 and a half stone. I’m self concious about my stomach, and stuff, so I try and workout. But adding pressure isn’t helping. I just feel down, like I know I shouldn’t complain and it’s petty and silly, but I just feel like I’m not good enough for him, and I’ll never be what he needs me to be.
Sorry that’s a long one aha. Any advice would be appreciated https://static.thestudentroom.co.uk/...lies/smile.png