I don't really have any friends at the moment. Or at least it feels that way.
I started sixth form this year - I was best friends with like 4 people and close friends with a couple of others.
The 4 ditched me and I was replaced but I still had the others right? Haha nope. All they do is take photos of me and laugh about them but god if I did the same to them - all hell would break loose.
A close relative died about a week ago and no one has even asked me how I am - except my business teacher, shes great lol. All the others talk about what they are doing at the weekend with one another and I'm not invited to any of it. You'll probably ask do you even speak to these people outside of college? Well not really but when I did they wouldnt respond until hours later. One day I just thought to test the waters but not texting them and low and behold, they don't even bother with me anymore.
I know these people are toxic but I don't have anyone else. I don't know what to do and I hate all of this.
Explore new activities and clubs. Invest the time and energy you spend on those guys and invest it in other more positive things.
There are endless opportuntiies for expanding yoru social circle, the thing is, most people dont want to spend the time and energy and soemtimes money into regularly attending those social events, that gradually lea dto new friends.
It is also possible that your friends arent even aware of how hurt you are. Have you tried telling them that they are bothering you. Be honest with them, you have nothing to lose. But if they do not respect you, it is time to find real friends. Good luck.
Sorry to hear that this is happening to you. This is really a horrible experience. I imagine you mourn the fact that you are somewhat lonely rather than not being friends with them anymore, but you are better off without these people. You know this, though.
The only advice I can give you is that, eventually, time will heal your wounds and you will find better people, just as you found your friends. It's the sort of thing that just happens.
If you ever want anyone to talk to, though, you're more than welcome to drop me a PM.