Hi all!
Yesterday I found out that I was unsuccesful in getting onto my PhD at Cambridge (English: Criticism and Culture). Equally, I've been accepted onto an English PhD at the University of Sussex, but devastatingly, wasn't shortlisted for CHASE funding from the AHRC.
So, my options now are: to abandon all hopes of starting my PhD this year, take up the place at Sussex and take out a Postdoctorate Doctoral Loan of £25,000 (and work part-time) and reapply for CHASE for the 2nd year of my PhD, or to do the PhD part-time.
I know that many of you will be in a similar position to me, so I wanted to create a space for people to offer advice and for others to benefit from it.
I was absolutely crushed when I realised that my dream was pushed into the realm of impossibility, and my supervisors (who were very confident I would get the funding) are similarly surprised and dismayed but still want me to come and work with them for the PhD.
What I would really like advice on, is whether it is worth putting myself into further financial risk so that I can pursue my PhD, especially with no assurances on finding a position after I finish it and with existing debts to pay off.
Equally, I've heard from other friends doing their funded PhDs that self-funded students are at so many disadvantages, including missing out on conferences and professional development opportunities, having to work, issues of envy and resentment, and the obvious lack of funding having an impact on their career chances (as there is no proof that they can attract money, which is apparently quite significant for academic employers?).
Are self-funded students seen as somehow less than (by fellow students and employers)? How can there be a fair amount of funded PhDs in English if there are extremely limited funding places for AHRC? And is the fact that I've been accepted by the university negated by the fact that they didn't want to fund my project? Does that mean that they don't really think it is a valid piece of work?
All thoughts, opinions, and advice welcome.
Thank you very much for any insight you can offer!