Okay so here is my story... (I know it’s lkng, please read!!
In The summer of 2018, I practically dated my next door neighbor, who is a male. (I am female) He soon lost interest in October and I was so sad. I was still his friend. In November, I quickly befriended a girl in my class. We’ll call her “Becky”
Recently, (January-February) I’ve been hanging out with Becky and becoming closer with her. My ex has been being very cruel to me, and she has helped me through it. She’s a very touchy person, so she always is hugging me and holding hands. Last night at a sleepover, she wanted to sleep next to me and we did. She cuddled with me and held my hand. We fell asleep like that and kept each other warm.
When I’m with her I feel safe and protected, and overall happier. I know I like boys, and have no sexual feelings towards Becky, but idk what it is. I love her and she always says she loves me but it’s more than just friends.
I just want to be near her. I have never liked girls, or even felt this deep connection, so can someone please try and tell me why I love her so much, and I’ve just recently became close.
She always tells me how funny, sweet, caring, amazing, and pretty I am and I really want to get to the bottom of this. I don’t think of her sexually, and I crave physical affection, so is that it? Am I just emotionally and physically attached to Becky?
Can someone please answer, I am dying to know! Sorry if this is super pong, and by the way I am a straight 14 year old female, who’s had one almost boyfriend in her life.
Thank you, anonymous