(Please keep anon)
Basically, I've had anorexia since around aged 13, I'm 17 now, and have had periods of being stable, and many relapses. I'm in NHS outpatient at the moment, and around my basic level of my target weight. As this is anon, I'm 148cm and nearly 42kg. In OP since about December, I've regained about 5kg (not from my lowest weight), and my counsellor told me yesterday that she was at this medical conference and they said that physiologically, people with ED' aren't kidding when they say the weight has really come back onto the, as you have a body shape and then during weight loss it obviously changes, and when you regain the wieght it wont go to your original body shape, but will involve you maintaining for around 6months before it redistributes as it needs to.
Basically, my situation is that I have been here so many times before....as in getting to a stable weight, and feeling better etc, and then something happens (ie stress/family/general anorexia shouting louder than I can block out) and I fall back, and loose the weight. Has anyone been in this situation before, and have any tips on how to, well not panic? My counsellor jokily said she'd print it on my forehead, as I worry as it all has gone to my upper arms and hips, and as I am short, it shows a lot more .
Another pet peeve is that around 13, I didn't have much of a body shape - ie hips or breasts mainly. Obviously losing weight lost any chance of a chest for me in the past few years, but when my body 'redistributes' how will that work, if was barely an A-cup beforehand? Does it mean, due to hormones and lack of periods for nearly two years (I have it almost all regularly now) that it just wont come to me? Very confused, and while the anorexia is at bay I just want to be healthy and have a nice body shape like everyone else my age. I told my friend this today and she said for her 18th (October) I'd look lovely, and I really hope so - I want to look and feel normal.
Any advice really appreiacted, thanks.