I have been with my boyfriend for 4 months now, to be honest I don't even know if I love him but he tells me all the time that he loves me. He started saying it really early on in the relationship and I didn't know you could fall in love that quickly...that's besides the point though.
He's recently started to irritate me and I can't tell if I feel anything towards him anymore or not. Pretty sure I used to. I have been depressed for years now (actually diagnosed) and have other issues. I do like being with him I guess but for the past month I have been feeling so anxious about having sex with him and tbh I don't enjoy kissing him. I just feel numb. He also has quite bad mental health problems.
I mean, he's smart, good looking, we have things in common. I don't know if I still want to be with him or if I'm just going through a super depressive episode because I don't feel anything right now towards anything. I'm also stressed and so is he.
He's 5 years older than me. Which I do like, I like older guys.
I don't know...I don't want to break up though. But is that just me being attached to him? Not actual feelings? I don't know.