Suicidal

Has anyone ever felt like killing themselves for no other reason other than you feel completely awful? That everything is a huge effort and that no one will ever know how hard you're finding things? That's how I feel tonight. I'm not crying or feeling over-emotional. I'm behaving quite 'normal', in fact. It's such a horrible feeling. If anyone else does get this, what do you do?

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Reply 1

Anonymous #2

i know exactly how you feel in fact i pondered over this today, my life is perfectly fine i just go through a lot of ******* on a regular basis and at times it gets too much, you just have to realise how blessed we are to be living in this day and age and how valuable life is to get yourself out of that mind frame, trust its all in your head its psychological and you need to think out of the box. listen to some calming music and sleep on it.. thats what i do..

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

Thanks for that constructive piece of advice. Not.

I'm not joking :frown:

Reply 3

Anonymous #1

I have depression and listening to calm music doesn't seem to help. I will try though. I'm sorry you feel like this too.

Reply 4

Anonymous #3

I feel suicidal a lot and can sympathise with what you're going through, generally I just try to sleep and hope it goes away in the morning.

or I cut myself instead - don't do that, it's bad. or I punch my pillow until I'm worn out and suicide just seems so much harder.

Reply 5

Speedbird2008

OP, just try and relax.

Don't act on any of yuor feelings, just look upon it as a phase in your growing up period.

:smile:

Reply 6

Anonymous #1

I don't know many people who go through the suicide growing up period, tbh. I'm not a teenager. Thanks though. I guess I could thump my pillow. I just don't seem to care anymore. People annoy me and I just want out. I never used to be like this.

Reply 7

The Last Meatbag

Frustration? I get that too sometimes.
It's both an easy way out, but it's hard.

In the end, there is always a 'good day' ahead. Seriously...
Take a walk, calm down...rationalise....it's better to live than end any chance of happiness you WILL have in the future. Things are better than you think, it's nothing that time and talking things through wont help.

Have you considered therapeutic help ???

Reply 8

Anonymous #4

If I ever feel like that, which is often, I always think of the impact that actually killing myself would have on others. Just imagine your family and friends reacting to being told that you had killed yourself, or even worse, had found you dead.
I usually come to the conclusion that I am so depressed that I don't care how depressed I am, I'd rather live though the bad bits than make other people suffer.
Also, you probably just want to escape; go to sleep for a long time because everything is too much of an effort.
Killing yourself is final, you can't come back when you feel good again

Reply 9

Lorena_Blue

Well, I used to have suicidal thoughts too to be honest and I got better when I started a diary. Sounds a bit tacky, but it helped me to sort problems one by one and clear my mind a bit.

Reply 10

The Last Meatbag

Anonymous

Killing yourself is final, you can't come back when you feel good again

Basically, what I was going for in the post above!
Cant stress this enough! :cool:

Reply 11

tom_tom_tom

Talking to people can work miracles i should know

if you cant talk to people, samartians are always there!

Reply 12

P_Ben21

08457 90 90 90, Samaritans

One number, will help you so much.

Reply 13

charkate_x

Sometimes it helps to talk to someone. If you want someone to talk to you can pm me. I dont mind. hope your ok x

Reply 14

random_bloke

The thing to remember is that YOU ARE NOT THINKING RATIONALLY.

Depression affects your rational thinking, you are incapacitated int terms of making an informed or rational choice about such a big decision.

It is therefore important to recognise this and then defer the decision until you can think rationally (which will happen), and then you will have a different opinion and take on the situation.

I won't say I can understand, because as I've felt like this; it's different for everybody. It's individual. But you I know that the temptation is to catastrophise; you MUST try and put things in perspective, and if you can do that you'll realise you can cope :-)

Reply 15

random_bloke

Lorena_Blue

Well, I used to have suicidal thoughts too to be honest and I got better when I started a diary. Sounds a bit tacky, but it helped me to sort problems one by one and clear my mind a bit.

that's really really good advice, I've done this as well.

Reply 16

Anonymous #5

i cant say it hasnt crossed my mind, for the past few months ive felt like doing it, but i cant put my brothers through what my mum tried to put me through when i was younger. just hang in there, things should get better.

Reply 17

Anonymous #1

Of course I have thought about the impact it will have on other people. I'm not stupid. You can tell me I'm selfish until you're blue in the face. That doesn't make a difference anymore.

I have seen a counsellor but it didn't go well. I'm waiting to see someone else but the wait is too long.

I know I can't come back when I feel good again but it wont matter because I will be dead and I'll never know.

Reply 18

Anonymous #1

I'm not threatening to kill myself; I just need to talk because I want to make some sense of it. I want to talk to people.

People talk about it as if it's a choice I have made. I would do anything if I thought it would work.

Reply 19

Gueirguiy

I think this can be fixed if you let your rage out (if not angry do it anyway). Let your rage out through something like boxing, a fight, punching bag. This works for me.