Was sexually abused as a kid and afraid I may have done the same to another kid. Help Watch

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Between ages 7-12 I was sexually abused. I was made to perform oral sex and he would give me oral sex, and show me porn etc. So.. when I was around 10-11 ish I started kissing this other girl who was 6-7 and I would kiss her tummy (I think I was trying to simulate oral sex but I didn't realise that they weren't kissing the stomach cause he would mostly skip over these kind of scenes when he showed me porn. He was more focused on showing me what I needed to do to him).



So I really feel guilty about it and even feel quite disgusted with myself. I honestly didn't realise the gravity of what I was doing. Just knew I was doing something naughty. I'm also afraid she may think I'm a lesbian (and although there's nothing wrong with that) I don't want people thinking that as it would hurt my dating prospects.



I don't know what to do? Should I apologise to her? Am I a horrible person?
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garnetznstonez
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Yeah I mean if you still know the girl and you think she remembers then let her know about your situation- or just briefly be like that was so messed up and I was young and didn't realise how bad it was then, etc. And then leave it.
Also so sorry about what happened to you, was it someone you knew well and have you told anyone?
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Between ages 7-12 I was sexually abused. I was made to perform oral sex and he would give me oral sex, and show me porn etc. So.. when I was around 10-11 ish I started kissing this other girl who was 6-7 and I would kiss her tummy (I think I was trying to simulate oral sex but I didn't realise that they weren't kissing the stomach cause he would mostly skip over these kind of scenes when he showed me porn. He was more focused on showing me what I needed to do to him).



So I really feel guilty about it and even feel quite disgusted with myself. I honestly didn't realise the gravity of what I was doing. Just knew I was doing something naughty. I'm also afraid she may think I'm a lesbian (and although there's nothing wrong with that) I don't want people thinking that as it would hurt my dating prospects.



I don't know what to do? Should I apologise to her? Am I a horrible person?
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It must have been tough to cope with the assault.. hope you’re doing good now..
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