Thanks,
The thing is I kind of deserve this because I still went after her even though I knew she had a bf, me messaging her etc. I couldn't not because she is just like everything I want in a person. So I kind of feel guilty too. I just wasn't expecting it to get this far and now I'm here and I'm stuck. And at the same time she feels like the most amazing friend, so I'm not sure yet if I would cut her out of my life completely if she said no, but I wouldn't want.her to be leading me on still. So I guess I need an answer.
If it's a no, its going to be hard for me because I will be alone forever - I all want is an amazing relationship romantic with someone in my life, I've never wanted mediocrity and I've always been single because of it, its drove me mad that I met this jaw-droping girl (literally the most beautiful person I have laid my eyes on, who I love spending time with), and she already has a bf and yet she seems to like me, I really don't know how I have gotten myself into this situation from having no experience of any relationships in my life prior.