So basically i lived in student halls... and i had sex with a friend of my friends........ he got attached and every time we all went out and got drunk he would talk to me explicity and about his penis etc.....
i knew he liked me and my friends told me etc...... so one night he texted me (we talked in text a few times) and asked me if he could come to my flat. We lived in the same accomadation but different flats. I thought he wanted sex so i said no and told him it was because i didnt want sex or a relationship with him etc.
He kept insisting that he wasnt after anything sexual and he just wanted to be friends and chill with me..... so i said he could come round as long as he understood i would not be having sex with him. He said thats fine and came round....
we chilled for a bit and watched tv.... then my uni room was basically a double bed with an ensuite and a balcony so the window opened wide to allow access to the balcony.... we were both smokers so we went on the balcony to have a cigarette and sat on the window on the outside. At this point he started to touch me.... he touched my boobs, so I pushed him off me but he was very strong so it took both my hands to get his one hand off my boobs.. and i told him to stop.... anyway for quite a few minutes he would alternate between touching my boobs and, well, down *there*, even tho i kept telling him to stop and trying to push him away altho it didnt work because it took me two hands to push one of his away so he would just use his other hand to touch me up.
So I stood up and climbed inside the window. I told him i wanted him to leave. He said "I will show you what i am going to do.... and he pushed me over on my bed..... and started kissing me... i pushed him but i couldnt get him off me..... he then lay on me so his weight was holding me down.... and he used his hand to push up my dress and pull down my underwear..
He then touched me down below for a while..... as i struggled against him...... and then he pulled his own jeans and underwear down and well he had sex with me.... i tried to push him away and told him not to but he kept going... aftter he just got up, put his clothes back and left.....
I wish i never let him come round because i had a feeling he wanted to have sex.... I am dumb...
is this rape?