I am trying to get out of Bulimia , and I haven’t made myself puke today or yesterday for the first time in forever , not due to lack of opportunity but because I just didn’t want to damage myself anymore. The thing is though, I feel so much worse about myself since I stopped. I just want to cry and I feel so off and unusual. Everytime I go to the toilet I feel like I should go and make myself puke while I’m at it. I keep thinking about doing it and I am really scared I will get fatter.