drugs

Why don't you try talking to Frank?

It must be hard getting over addiction, but you have to try, the drugs could kill you. Your friends are just trying to help you. What about just smoking weed for a while?

Good luck with whatever you choose to do

From what you have said, it sounds like you are already getting the begginings of a problem.
You say that you cannot function without snorting Ketamine, and if its getting in the way of normal life then you do have a serious problem.

There is only one way out of the downward spiral and that really is to stop using altogether.
Its just not worth letting something like this take over your life - and it does sound like it is taking over both your home and night life.

I really apologise if I sound preachy...
I'm not even tough on drugs! Just sounds like its actually getting in the way of you functioning normally.

you dont sound preachy, it's your opinion.

i can function without it. there;s been times when i would literally sniff a gram a day. i'm not like that at the moment. and i can always function without it. ketamine isnt physically addictive (but very psychologically addictive). so i dont get physical withdrawals... it's just like a constant nagging want. when i go back home i pretty much have to go almost clean, as i can't do it at home unless late at night in my room (cos of mum) and i don't want to piss my friends off if i go out.

I dont really know what you want from this so I'm just making a few observations.

-If you're doing drugs everyday then you arent the same person you used to be. You say yourself that you act differently when you take them, and this basically does make you a different person. It also means that when you havent taken anything, you're looking to take something and that's bound to change how you are too.
god, that is true. but mainly i am the same person. its just like when they drink, they are different people...

-You seem aware of the problem of addiction but it doesnt seem like you realise that you're addicted yourself? But your need to get ketamine now and the fact you're using everyday makes it seem like you are.
yeah... i have mixed feelings about this. maybe it;s just a phase and when i go home i'll settle down... ive been through phases before, then i lay off for a while...

-Drugs wont kill the parrot on your shoulder. He'll still be there when you sober up. Infact I'd say the drugs are feeding the parrot and giving him ammunition. You need to sort out your reality another way.
again, valid point.

-You can't go like this forever. When does it stop? What are you going to have left when you stop? I hope you have other friends that dont do drugs or you'll end up quitting and not having anyone.

-Please be careful taking lots of things at the same time
thank you... i am

I used to take drugs - weed, pills/mdma and psychedelics mostly. I tried ket but wasn't really too struck at it. Anyway I did mescaline twice, shrooms once and acid once - they were incredibly fun and I would consider doing them again, but nor for a long long time.

Anyway I had a terrifying experience with some nasty pills with piperazines in them. Really horrible, contributed to anxiety issues that I've mostly managed to conquer (I've always had anxiety to some extent - maybe why I did drugs in the first place?).

If you feel you want to stop then stop - I know it sounds kinda stupid but the only way to stop taking drugs is to stop buying them. If you think you can carry on then that's totally your decision, but I can say that at least taking a brake will do a lot of good.

I don't want to sound preachy (and you asked us not to be). But you are starting to get addicted...

You've mentioned that you're taking more and more drugs (tonight it was "only" 2 types of illegal drugs, sleeping pills and alcohol). That's more than I would expect people with the beginnings of a problem to do in a week, especially because it implies you are doing at least that on a daily basis.

You may feel fine now, but the more drugs you do, the more you will change. But you probably won't notice it yourself because it is so gradual (the amount of times I read about / hear about addicts / former addicts who are "I didn't notice I'd changed that dramatically..." is suprisingly common).
I don't want to say it, but it's likely your friends have noticed a change in you - especially since they haven't seen you for a while. Any change would be more noticable after time apart.
I've had friends who have started smoking weed or drinking regularly or just "hanging out" with people who did drugs regularly. They are (well, were - I don't see them much anymore) adament they have not changed at all, but they had. A lot.

You say you don't want to get off of them, that they make you feel good.
But is that "good" really outweighing the costs financially, on your health (mental and physical), and a shorter lifespan. I honestly don't think so.

I will be honest and say my viewpoint IS biased - I have never done drugs and never had the inclination to. However, I do honestly believe that they have a bad stigma for a reason.

If you don't want to cut down / try and sort it out for yourself, then don't. But think about the affect it will take on your family and friends if you start borrowing off of them / get into a lot of debt. Or the worse affect it'd have if you did get ill from it (mixing drugs with other drugs / alcohol is NEVER a good idea anyways...) or even die.

Sorry if that did come across preachy, but no matter what you think drugs don't just affect you. It affects so many other people around you.

But at the end of the day, it is your life and no-one on the internet can change your mind if you're stuck in your believes that you are fine and the drugs aren't taking over (no matter how much your original post indicates otherwise).

xxx

P.S. (Some) Drugs can still affect you even after you've stopped and "recovered" from them... My friend's parent's friend did LSD once and had a flashback 30 years later while driving. Needless to say he crashed his car and died....

P.S. (Some) Drugs can still affect you even after you've stopped and "recovered" from them... My friend's parent's friend did LSD once and had a flashback 30 years later while driving. Needless to say he crashed his car and died....

i dont know. at the moment its just what i want to do.

i havent lost all my friends, i just feel like things are weird with my friends back home. just like they're a little disappointed in me, or they think i;m a bit pathetic. i still go out and have a good time with them, i just try to keep my drug use to a minimum around them as i know they disapprove and i dont want to offend them.

bismarck, is your name from otto von bismarck?

one, stuff like LSD, weed, shrooms are so incredibly different from stuff like coke, valium, e's that I don't even know where to start. So I won't. It's well documented, really.

two, if you're gonna do drugs, you have to be prepared to lose friends. people WILL look down on you for it, even if you only did them on a single occasion. it's just a fact of life. some people are closed minded like that. **** them, you don't need them.
thanks. most of my friends do accept it and just do the old "tut tut" if i get off my face some time.

three, contrary to what I just said...you do actually have a problem. you seem to be sitting on the fence on accepting you have a problem here. stop trying to rationalise your bad decisions and cut back. drugs are okay, drug addiction is not.
yeah... maybe... >.< i think i need to take a good long hard look at myself... i guess this is what i was trying to do with this thread

four, I typed that pretty much off the top of my head and I'm incredibly tired, apologies if it's not particularly articulate or well structured

EDIT: also, I'm not sure if you're the kind of person who should be taking drugs. the kind of person who should take drugs is confident, secure, and basically just doing it for a laugh. you sound to me like the polar opposite of that. basically, incredibly at risk of addiction.

yes, i do have an addictive personality. whether it;s a tv show, a band, a coping mechanism or whatever, i get obsessed with things. i do do drugs for a laugh and when i do them i feel confident. mostly. i mean i would say the Es and my drinking are for a laugh... yes, they are kind of a way to get rid of that "parrot on my shoulder" but they are something i only do as a sociable thing. at east when i first started it was purely a fun-i-wanna-be-off-my-face and having a blast kind of thing. maybe now it has become because i;m insecure if i dont take them. the ketamine/valium is something i worry about more as being an actual problem, since i do them alone...