how to deal with consequences Watch
I haven't been the best daughter lately. I didn't get pregnant but I'm not exactly the best child a typical Asian family would want to have. I haven't been in school in two years because of mental health problems and just enrolling again this September, I'm not working either and I'm just lazying around ugh and I feel guilty because they've invested so much in my education but I've given them nothing but disappointment.
I've gotten used to them being careful around me because I have mental health problems but now they've gotten tired of it and I understand! And I now know that my depression is just one reason on how I deal with things but not really an excuse. I always try to avoid anything complicated in life because I'm scared I might slip back to a big mental breakdown again but honestly, it's like living fake happiness when I do this and although I feel good, it's not really healthy for me to be escapist all the time right?
This is such a silly question but how do I deal with this? I just want to grow more emotionally mature too as I have to face these things sooner or later. I just don't wanna be like 'Oh I'm depressed that's why I can't deal with stuff', I wanna be more like "Ok I have Major Depression but I have to face these consequences and I'm going to do it."
Thank you so much for those who answer!