I know I will get hurt - should I just stop talking to him?

You’re hesitating and want someone to give you that push and tell you stop talking to him.

You can just rethink again, maybe he’s nice, maybe he’s kind. But your stresses cause you to think otherwise. You might just end up misjudging him and stop talking to him. But believe it, regretting being unfair or mistreating someone is worse than being hurt by someone.

You’re the one to evaluate your own situation; as obviously there are things missing you haven’t mentioned. Just try to release your stresses and nervousness, then start to think again. Only deeds can show you what’s bad and what’s good. You can’t just presume stuffs, and then regret it later.

Btw there is nothing called “my gut is always right”. There is always deviation in every thing.

Rethink and check what’s best for you. Try to check the other view you’re missing from the bottle. Maybe you’re missing something.

GL

It’s always important to put yourself first, even if you don’t have a boyfriend or anything, you’ll always have friends which can help you through tough times. Don’t put yourself in a relationship just because you don’t want to be alone, sometimes it’s better to be by yourself and focus on making sure you’re happy with who you are

Because I don’t want to start cutting myself again because of him
I agree with you though, I won’t know until I go through with it but I’m just scared.

That is through your own choice, he's not doing anything at all and it's actually quite childish to blame it on another person.

I would also ask you to seek professional advice from your GP because you're clearly not in the right mindset. I've also reported your post in regards to self-harm, so someone should be contacting you about that.

Like you said ‘it’s my own choice’ so I don’t need you to report anything for me

Already did and I will happily again.

That’s what I was hoping you would do, tell me to stop and I was willing to listen.

You are right that I might regret it later but I think I will regret it even more if i don’t stop talking to him and he turns out to be what I had imagined him to be.

Maybe you are right about the gut thing, I don’t know what to do.

Well, none is to tell you to do something against your desire. But seems like you have faced something that made you think that way of him. Then you can stop talking to him. If it’s just a presumption, then you’re the only one to see the aftermaths