Abusive relationships Watch
Basically I got beat up a lot, hair ripped out, kicked in the head whatever, was with the guy for four years and basically lost everything I had between the ages of 16-20...I've got away from it now, easier than I thought but basically things have been horrible since.
I don't think I miss him because I feel more like myself since being single but I have the uncontrollable urge all the time to tell everyone I know about what he did to me...even though this would achieve nothing and just makes me think about the past.
He boasts about his permanently broken knuckle but never tells anyone how he did it obviously...
I don't know what I'm trying to say.
Being single is really horrible cause I'm so used to being with somebody but the intensity of everything that's gone on in the last four years makes me appear like a miserable moody biatch...
Also, whilst I was in this relationship I basically lost all the friends I had and when I came to university I basically only made one proper friend, who is doing their year abroad from September and I just don't know what to do
I know I can't blame the relationship for everything but it seems like its to blame for a lot of my problems now and I don't know what to do next...
really i think you should speak to a proffesional, they will be able to help ypu far more.
I just feel stupid and angry...
If you told people what he did to you, it could make people realise what he is like, but it may also turn people against you if they think you are lying to get attention after the break-up. Maybe it would help to confide in your close friend, and maybe see if you can get back in touch with old friends?
Being single after a long and significant relationship is weird and horrible, but I think you need some time alone to work out who you are and what you feel.
I guess I have been friendly and I have got a good group of friends now but I feel...I know it sounds stupoid but like I'm not really being me, like I need one person who I can truly be myself with!
Ah, this sucks!!!