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... you want to, please say how stupid I am.

I know I shouldn’t be, but I am extremely jealous and bitter of everyone who has got into medical school.

My own fault I failed, but if I had hindsight I would have done better.

I am nothing now. A failure.


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I wish I could roll back time. I wish I wasn’t so relaxed when it came to
doing my AS-levels. I wish we were allowed to do A-levels over 3 years.

I can’t believe how much I have let myself down 😔
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You're saying this as if it is over. When it is not. Just go again, you'll get there in your own time. Don't worry about what the others are doing because that builds up unnecessary envy.
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You're saying this as if it is over. When it is not. Just go again, you'll get there in your own time. Don't worry about what the others are doing because that builds up unnecessary envy.
It is over. My A-levels are terrible. Thinking about doing GEM, but I know I will fail that too.

i don’t want to miss anymore years, I just need to find another career (I don’t think I can actually consider other careers though). 🙁
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... you want to, please say how stupid I am.

I know I shouldn’t be, but I am extremely jealous and bitter of everyone who has got into medical school.

My own fault I failed, but if I had hindsight I would have done better.

I am nothing now. A failure.


😞

I wish I could roll back time. I wish I wasn’t so relaxed when it came to
doing my AS-levels. I wish we were allowed to do A-levels over 3 years.

I can’t believe how much I have let myself down 😔
It's not the end of the road yet, there are still other ways. But you need to put your health first.
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a small part of me can relate to what you said but as @ analsurprise has said don't worry 'bout what others are doing. I should take that advice too
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disregard, wasn't well thought out
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I'm sure someone better qualified will know if I'm right, but if you've messed up your a levels badly I don't think there's anything you can do for now apart from go from grad entry. If it means anything I dropped out at 15, predicted CEE and got 3A*, slim chance things might turn out great in the future for you just stay optimistic, keep working hard, make sure you're having fun and do your best. If things don't then try not to let it bother you, one of my friends got rejected 4 times and it was so sad to see it eating her up inside. Make sure you're having a good time in the mean time instead of getting overly obsessed about this so if you're rejected again you won't have the horrible feeling you've got now.

Here are some things which will definitely take your mind off things, some require money some don't:
Hire 2 escorts at the same time
Hit on random women
Travel with friends
Get absolutely s***faced
Ring up quickquid, wonga, flat earth society etc and say random c**p to whoever picks up
Videogames and insult everyone
If you're quieter maybe movies?

Start living your life bro you tried your best have a bit of time off .
Thank you for your advice, but I’m female.
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(Original post by Lostx)
... you want to, please say how stupid I am.

I know I shouldn’t be, but I am extremely jealous and bitter of everyone who has got into medical school.

My own fault I failed, but if I had hindsight I would have done better.

I am nothing now. A failure.


😞

I wish I could roll back time. I wish I wasn’t so relaxed when it came to
doing my AS-levels. I wish we were allowed to do A-levels over 3 years.

I can’t believe how much I have let myself down 😔
:console:

The worst thing you could do now is to beat yourself up over it. I know it's hard and tough looking at other people succeeding, but be happy for them.

You'll need to break out of this cycle of worrying about the future, and thinking too much about things. This will lead to mental health problems and not doing well in future exams.

Just keep trying your best, that's the most you can do. Good luck and as usual my PMs are always open. :hugs:
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Thank you for your advice, but I’m female.
Still I'm sure there must be something which sounds interesting, although unfortunately don't really know what girls like to do. Those are just things I enjoy when I'm getting fed up and need to destress lol, try doing something "intense" like those and I'm sure it will take your mind off things.

I see how you've put "I don't want to waste more years", you're only wasting the years if you're doing nothing but studying and not enjoying yourself. e.g. if you do your first degree, have fun, have backup plans, things don't go so well (and it's a real possibility) it doesn't matter. You haven't wasted 4 years trying for medicine, you wasted a few months doing the ucat, gamsat etc and although it would have been nice to get in it's over now and you had a good time anyway. Make sure your work experience is something you actually enjoy so that isn't a waste of time, make sure your degree will be useful if you're unsuccessful etc and although I guess rejection would suck you'll still be doing much better than most of the uk
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(Original post by sorryforgotpass)
I'm sure someone better qualified will know if I'm right, but if you've messed up your a levels badly I don't think there's anything you can do for now apart from go from grad entry. If it means anything I dropped out at 15, predicted CEE and got 3A*, slim chance things might turn out great in the future for you just stay optimistic, keep working hard, make sure you're having fun and do your best. If things don't then try not to let it bother you, one of my friends got rejected 4 times and it was so sad to see it eating her up inside. Make sure you're having a good time in the mean time instead of getting overly obsessed about this so if you're rejected again you won't have the horrible feeling you've got now.

Here are some things which will definitely take your mind off things, some require money some don't:
Hire 2 escorts at the same time
Hit on random women
Travel with friends
Get absolutely s***faced
Ring up quickquid, wonga, flat earth society etc and say random c**p to whoever picks up
Videogames and insult everyone
If you're quieter maybe movies?

Start living your life bro you tried your best have a bit of time off .
What a retarded post.
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What a retarded post.
disregrard pls
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Nothing gets accomplished sitting around feeling sorry for yourself, and unless op has near missed which I'm fairly sure she hasn't she just needs to move on and take her mind off things. That isn't going to happen lazing about the house all day.
You need to know that OP has serious mental health problems and was (still is?) sectioned inside a psychiatric hospital.

Please read her post history before commenting further.

It is also usually recommended here in the Medicine by experienced posters that retaking A-Levels is still better than doing a degree and then GEM because it's cheaper, shorter and relatively easier to get in undergrad medicine (even after retaking A-Levels for a year) than GEM.

But I do agree with your sentiments - for a mentally normal person feeling sorry for yourself is not going to make things better. You do need to get out of the house and do things!
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You need to know that OP has serious mental health problems and was (still is?) sectioned inside a psychiatric hospital.

Please read her post history before commenting further.

It is also usually recommended here in the Medicine by experienced posters that retaking A-Levels is still better than doing a degree and then GEM because it's cheaper, shorter and relatively easier to get in undergrad medicine (even after retaking A-Levels for a year) than GEM.
Didn't realise, deleting my post
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Didn't realise, deleting my post
No problem
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... you want to, please say how stupid I am.

I know I shouldn’t be, but I am extremely jealous and bitter of everyone who has got into medical school.

My own fault I failed, but if I had hindsight I would have done better.

I am nothing now. A failure.


😞

I wish I could roll back time. I wish I wasn’t so relaxed when it came to
doing my AS-levels. I wish we were allowed to do A-levels over 3 years.

I can’t believe how much I have let myself down 😔
Life sometimes throws you a curved ball and put you on the wrong path. I think I have read some of your posts before. Wishing you well.

Life is not over. I will share my story to show you that things can and do get better despite everything.

I got EEE at A level. My father was a drug addicted alcoholic who spend his spare time trying to commit suicide before he eventually succeeded. My mother didn't care. I would be left alone for weeks on end while they went on holiday. I was 12 years old. There are other things which I won't go into here.

So after my failure at A levels, I left home , working in Asda for a year before eventually settling in London. I decided not to let a miserable upbringing dictate my life. I went to evening university birkbeck and got a degree. I also trained as a nurse. Yep it wasn't my original plan, but I was solvent and educated.

There is always another avenue for you to go down ..... you just need to look for it.
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You're saying this as if it is over. When it is not. Just go again, you'll get there in your own time. Don't worry about what the others are doing because that builds up unnecessary envy.
I have given up now. It is not technically over; but to say it would be easy is an understatement.

What do you mean ‘i’ll get there in my own time’? I am stuck. I need to complete a degree, sit the UCAT and BMAT then the GAMSAT. I need to get a first and to be honest life is not inclined towards the better things.
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It's not the end of the road yet, there are still other ways. But you need to put your health first.
What are these other ways? GEM?

If so, I think the stress will kill me
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...I need to get a first and to be honest life is not inclined towards the better things.
Not necessarily. 2:1 is the minimum criteria for most med schools' GEM requirements.

I do agree that GAMSAT is tough, and most GEM require higher UCAT scores as it's more competitive.

As I have said above, see if you can retake A-Levels because it is cheaper than taking a degree (£9000 x 3 years).
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The worst thing you could do now is to beat yourself up over it. I know it's hard and tough looking at other people succeeding, but be happy for them.

You'll need to break out of this cycle of worrying about the future, and thinking too much about things. This will lead to mental health problems and not doing well in future exams.

Just keep trying your best, that's the most you can do. Good luck and as usual my PMs are always open. :hugs:
Thanks, ecolier

I really appreciate your help. 🙂

I really can’t stop thinking about my life and how to get anywhere in
it. How do you manage to live in the present and not worry about the future?

Thanks for being so kind
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Don't be doing anything that is going to put your health or mental health in jeopardy. No job or fancy career is worth that.
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