hey so I initially didn't want to go to uni because I am really bad at making friends, I know that no one will fully understand me. And I let that affect me a lot, not having friends got in the way of my alevels , it made me feel depressed, unmotivated, it was emotionally draining, there was not a single week in which I wasn't sad, every one else seems to be doing just fine in the friends department, I tried my hardest to make friends but I just suck . it's a problem I have had my whole life
anyway i got CCCD in alevels in bio,chem, psychology and level 3 mathematical studies. I think seeing other people go to uni makes me feel like I should go even though I know I am going to be depressed. i wanted to study biomedical science or pharmacy . I found an apprenticeship for pharmacy assistant at an Nhs hospital. idk what to do. should i retake my alevels so i can go to a better uni? even though I'm not 100% sure that I will end up up going. if I did end up retaking I don't know if I can make an actual difference to my results, I hardly ever got C in sixth form but some how I did on results day so idk if my results are due to chance.
idk if I'll regret not retaking in the future, I just don't know anything. I am on my gap year now doing a job in retail. I could go to lower end unis but most people recommend retaking and not to do that .
the apprenticeship opportunity is some thing I could see myself doing , not to mention they said I have a chance of having a permanent role or higher level apprenticeship.
sorry that I am an actual mess