241119week eleven - i'm so sleepygirl this week has been so so long grr the price i pay for doing loads baha its not even alot i just require a lotta sleep to function i guess
biology:i) can i even remember what i did two seconds ago ... we finished up dna stuff which im still super confused on so ha love that and then moved onto enzyme stuff and apparently there's loads of pags coming up...greeat
ii) missed for mun prep grr more on that later
iii) osmosis continueddd and we have a test on friday which i have not started revising for woo go mez
iv) finished up pag work and graph drawing my teacher is actually not human the way she draws the curves on a graph so smoothly is beyond me
chemistry:i) ok but i have no clue what london forces are even though we have done loads of lessons on them now
ii) continued acids and bases i guess? all the topics are so mixed up now we only have one teacher who teaches us for all the content and he teaches all the other y12 classes so woo
iii) periodicity can die in a hole thanks
iv) same goes for electronegativity- wait hold up if we do anything about electrochemical cells imma scream i HATE them-
iv) did some practice qs which really showed that i learnt nothing wow
maths:i) why is maths turning into my favourite subject...
what's wrong with me...
w-why do i feel like this...im goin craZy now. so we did intergration but as area under a curve which is calm i can just plug it into my calculator...its becoming quite dangerous actually bc in my med school entrance tests i won't have my calculator so if there's any sorta fractions im screwed
ii) definite integration and more weird graph stuff..the way im finding it ok now and a couple weeks down the line im gonna be crying about it
iii) continued with stats but our lesson was being observed by the head of maths so out teacher was acting kinda aggy but we did eeeewwwww standard deviation and variance? if thats what i remember it being called. im kinda glad i know what it is now bc the y11 boys on my bus kept going on about it bc they do stats gcse and then it came up in the horrendous bio paper but the equation isn't as scary anymore! however i don't know how to use my calculator for it yet which i need to do asap
iv) more integration and combining it with stuff from other topics which i hateee bc thats my weakness in maths when everything gets mixed together woo we love that
psychology:i) i might as well teach myself ngl...dont get me wrong i adore my teacher but the lessons are so so unbelievably boring i-
ii) ok this one was kinda fun we did sampling which was good for reminding me about maths stuff which i had forgotten straight after my last maths exam in june but we did it with skittles and the whole lesson was a mess
iii) more research methods
iv) as above, but apparently our test is next tuesday...but on what love what have i actually learnt....hmm this seems to be a recurring theme and its kinda concerning
general stuff:i really should've typed this earlier but im lazy and now its late and im sleepy so great. alot of stuff happened this week so here's the breakdown:
so...i didn't get senior prefect
which is understandable partly because my interview went crappy and i feLT it but also bc my school is racist and islamaphobic but we move. then i went through a faze of where i wanted apply for house captain, but the deadline was super close and i was kinda demotivated from being rejected so i reevaluated if i wanted to be put under that stress,,if it was worth it and really overall gonna contribute to my med application plus i had to write a speech and make it uNiQUE and loads of people from my house were going for it...so i decided not to apply and go for charity official instead which is ok bc i just had to write an application letter and apparently there's an interview but i don't think its gonna be that deep plus i've got a lot on my plate already
parents evening was a thing lol it was kinda underwhelming imo wow im gonna sound like a whole ***** now but we got our...'target' grades which are like mock predicted grades
(how they can tell from just two months of work i have no clue) but as usual i rocked up late bc rush hour traffic sucks but hey.
chemistry was calm, targeted an A* bc of my fluke test where i only dropped a mark and my teacher asked what i was finding difficult and i said the dipole stuff and he looked at me like 'mez wth you clown that's the easiest stuff we've done' but he reassured me that bc i can do calculations i'll find it easier...sir i don't know about you but maths is NOT my forte here
biology targeted me an A which is fair but they said it will be bumped up later after more tests have been done but that's fine, they just said don't get too complacent
maths i was v nervous for but my teacher does like me so that's good and my mum lmao knows how crappy i am but my teacher reassured her and me in a way which was nice, im predicted an A which at first i was like..hmm ok but i got higher on the test, but then i remembered who i was and realised it was the right move bc maths is my weakest subject despite me getting the highest grade in it...hold up something aint adding up here- n e ways then i got a little carried away and starting talking about my f e e l i n g s ew and how i was v disappointed with myself for getting an 8 on results day and my teacher said if he didn't look it up then he would've assumed i got a 9 which is v nice to hear and has been troubling me even though it shouldn't but sometimes my mind is just....grr..but its nice to have someone believe in you!
psychology aw my teacher was actually the sweetest hA all my neek-ness and extra essays paid off bc she called me an A* student and then her and my mum talked some child psychology stuff so i zoned out..oh and then she finally gave our psychopathology marks back and i got 47/50 = an A* so thats goood but i still don't get why its my 16 markers that let me down but oh well i've got time to refine em
so this weekend i did no work bc we had the two day med conference thing we got to attend for free it was so long 9-5 but really insightful and kinda tried to sell us stuff which i was really keen on but now thinking about it...i don't have 3k spare for some residential summer school lmao. they do have other programmes which i'll look into but in a couple of weeks bc its gonna be really hectic until like mid december for me
nope no reading this week but i did finish the previous book which made me cry so its vvv good and will move onto the next book asap. i also submitted my mock medsoc interview thing idk when those will be but it's soon and i should prep for them. and my hospital volunteering meeting is on tuesday so i gotta miss school but take time to catch up on hw, revision and sleeP!
and mun was a thing on friday, people bunked as i should have but i was a country leader so i wasn't gonna do that to my team but yea we failed and ended up starting ww3 lmao lets just say none of us should become politicians
its just alot! and the conference thing made me realise how much more i have to do to be in the top '10%' or whatever the stats for med are.....phewWW i feel my heads gonna explode my skin is so so terrible rn ew buuuuT my birthday is soon! and im planning to go to winter wonderland w friends so hopefully that's gonna be a nice destresser kinda thing.
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