I really don’t know what to do Watch
I don’t know what to do. I’m 16 and I started college a few days ago and I’ve already ran home crying on both occasions. It’s so anxiety inducing for me and I can’t take it already. When I got back my mother hugged me and said I don’t have to go. But all weekend I’ve been crying my eyes out over it. If I go I’ll be so unmotivated and panicky and on edge the entire time, but if I don’t my family will disown me. I’ve already had numerous texts from family members saying that I’m throwing away my life and I’ll end up working in McDonald’s but I just can’t take it anymore. I feel so trapped. Today my mother has been extremely unhelpful, for the last few months she’s said she would call the doctor and guess what? She never has. I begged her to today but she won’t, saying they can’t prescribe me anything at my age. Why say she will when she won’t? She also said it’s my responsibility at my age, which is completely unfair since I’m not an adult yet, and I can’t do this alone. I thought she would understand since she dropped out of college and is on antidepressants. She said that my problem is I’m ‘mentally ill and should be in an asylum’. She’s also been saying that I’ve had months to change what I want to do and that I knew it would be like this but I really didn’t know I’d feel this way. My father is not helpful at all, telling me to just get on with life when I can’t. I really can’t carry on like this. I feel so alone. It is getting closer and closer to Monday and I really don’t know what to do tomorrow. It’s not fair that they want me to suffer just so I can get a few more qualifications. I’d rather earn less and be happy than have to be surrounded by immature strangers who are my age, and have to do so much work that I never have any spare time. Why are there never any other options for school leavers?
Oh and there is nothing wrong with working in McDonald's. It is an excellent company with a very good career structure