I'm no robot but I'm trying - A Year 11 GYG Watch

Poll: Do you want me to talk more about my mental health?
Yes (7)
53.85%
No (6)
46.15%
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#81
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#81
(Original post by starsj87)
Good luck!
Thank you!
0
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#82
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#82
Post 29
12/10/2019

Hello everyone! It's really cloudy today btw. Yesterday, after I had my Physics class, I fell asleep for 4 hours since I was so tired. I woke up at 12:30 a.m. and stayed up until 3 a.m. as I had to finish my homework.


|--*this is me rn*--|

Yesterday's to-do list:
Spoiler:
Show
Unfinished:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  20191210_092628[1].jpg
Views: 18
Size:  108.9 KB

Today:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  20191210_092602[1].jpg
Views: 15
Size:  111.9 KB



I have a Physics test tomorrow on electricity! I'm really tired but tomorrow will be the last hectic day of this term!!!

|--*this is me trying to be optimistic*--|

|--*normally i'm like this*--|

Thank you for reading! Hope you have a great week!

|--*good luck y'all*--|

My calling for the peeps that want to be called:
Spoiler:
Show
Please tell me if you want me to remove your tags or add them.
briana2585epicnmAmen4ToastiekidObolindamez_merisingbrainzistheword @starsj87

1
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#83
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#83
Post 30
13/12/2019

Hello everyone! It's really clear and sunny outside. It's Friday and the first term has officially ended!!!

|--*time to get enough sleep*--|
|--*woohoo*--|

This was the last to-do list:
Spoiler:
Show
Unfinished:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  20191213_131110[1].jpg
Views: 43
Size:  65.3 KB

Finished:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  20191213_131125[1].jpg
Views: 12
Size:  69.2 KB


Today's to-do list:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191213-131310_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 39
Size:  93.9 KB


My Bunny rn:
Spoiler:
Show
Kookie (I changed the name from Coraline to Kookie) is getting ready for the festive season!!! So far I have bought a Christmas hat and string lights! I still need to buy a cabin to finish the look. It costs me 160 coins but I still have only 102 coins.

I almost forgot about this. I signed up for a MUN conference on the last day of term. I asked my dad for money on the deadline which was the last day of term. I didn't read the e-mail until then.

|--*SMH*--|

After I paid, I realised that I didn't know shiz about how MUN works. I did some research into it already.

|--*ummm*--|
I have a favour if y'all don't mind. Can you give me tips on MUN? Thank you so much!

Thank you so much for reading! Have a great day!

|--*12 days until Christmas y'all*--|
|--*i can't wait*--|
|--*my fam doesn't celebrate Christmas but it is Christmas in my room*--|
|--*my sister celebrates too btw*--|

My calling for the peeps that want to be called:

Spoiler:
Show
Please tell me if you want me to remove your tags or add them.
briana2585epicnmAmen4ToastiekidObolindamez_merisingbrainzisthewordShining Stars @starsj87
I can't add starsj87 for some reason.

Last edited by rajayasaswini; 2 months ago
1
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#84
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#84
(Original post by Obolinda)
:hugs:
TYSM!!!

Have a great Christmas and Happy New Year!
0
reply
username4982256
Badges: 14
Rep:
?
#85
Report 2 months ago
#85
Hello,
I love this GYG, could I be tagged please?

Enjoy your holidays! :awesome:
1
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#86
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#86
(Original post by Shining Stars)
Hello,
I love this GYG, could I be tagged please?

Enjoy your holidays! :awesome:
I tagged you! Thank you so much for reading. It means a lot to me! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
0
reply
username4982256
Badges: 14
Rep:
?
#87
Report 2 months ago
#87
I probably should have asked for a tag sooner, I've been reading all of your updates for quite a while! :blushing:

And I would also like to thank you, as your posts make me smile :yep:

Merry Christmas!

(Original post by rajayasaswini)
I tagged you! Thank you so much for reading. It means a lot to me! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
0
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#88
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#88
(Original post by Shining Stars)
I probably should have asked for a tag sooner, I've been reading all of your updates for quite a while! :blushing:

And I would also like to thank you, as your posts make me smile :yep:

Merry Christmas!
Aaaaaaw. It's really nice to know that my posts make you smile. Thank you for reading and keeping up with my blog! It really really means a lot to me. You made my day!!! Merry Christmas to you too!!!
1
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#89
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#89
Post 31
15/12/2019

Hello peeps! How are you guys? It's pretty cloudy outside. I like the vibe cloudy skies give me. It's not too bright. Also, I managed to convince my parents to let me decorate my room for Christmas!


|--*it's officially Christmas in my room*--|
|--*finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*--|

I got golden coloured string lights in my room and I got this star that lights up. Unfortunately, the star doesn't really work. It has 3 coloured string lights. It has red, green and orange but only the orange works.

|--*i want all of them to work*--|
|--*the green wire got disconnected from the battery thing so it doesn't work*--|
|--*the red one is supposed to work but it's not rn*--|
I made this for y'all:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  20191215_132324[1].jpg
Views: 40
Size:  133.0 KB
I hope you guys can read it!

Oh yeah, I forgot to add last month's stats:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-133626_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 9
Size:  203.6 KB
these are the images after the app was updated
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-133605_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 24
Size:  99.0 KBName:  Screenshot_20191215-133614_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 47
Size:  102.5 KB

This is the to-do list so far:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-133552_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 36
Size:  133.3 KB

This is today's to-do list:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-134139_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 36
Size:  88.4 KB

So, I'm thinking of making a separate post on mental health and how I generally feel these days. You don't have to read it if you don't want to. I just really want to spread awareness about mental health and I feel like the first step is to talk about how I, a student like you all, deal with mental health issues and how I feel in general.

Thank you so much for reading! Have a great Christmas and have a great day y'all!


|--*christmas is coming y'all*--|
:cheers:|--*only 10 more days y'all*--|:cheers:
My calling for the peeps that want to be called:

Spoiler:
Show
Please tell me if you want me to remove your tags or add them.
briana2585epicnm Amen4 Toastiekid Obolinda mez_merising brainzistheword Shining Stars

Last edited by rajayasaswini; 2 months ago
1
reply
username4982256
Badges: 14
Rep:
?
#90
Report 2 months ago
#90
(Original post by rajayasaswini)
Post 31
15/12/2019

Hello peeps! How are you guys? It's pretty cloudy outside. I like the vibe cloudy skies give me. It's not too bright. Also, I managed to convince my parents to let me decorate my room for Christmas!


|--*it's officially Christmas in my room*--|
|--*finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*--|

I got golden coloured string lights in my room and I got this star that lights up. Unfortunately, the star doesn't really work. It has 3 coloured string lights. It has red, green and orange but only the orange works.

|--*i want all of them to work*--|
|--*the green wire got disconnected from the battery thing so it doesn't work*--|
|--*the red one is supposed to work but it's not rn*--|
I made this for y'all:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  20191215_132324[1].jpg
Views: 40
Size:  133.0 KB
I hope you guys can read it!

Oh yeah, I forgot to add last month's stats:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-133626_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 9
Size:  203.6 KB
these are the images after the app was updated
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-133605_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 24
Size:  99.0 KBName:  Screenshot_20191215-133614_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 47
Size:  102.5 KB

This is the to-do list so far:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-133552_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 36
Size:  133.3 KB

This is today's to-do list:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191215-134139_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 36
Size:  88.4 KB

So, I'm thinking of making a separate post on mental health and how I generally feel these days. You don't have to read it if you don't want to. I just really want to spread awareness about mental health and I feel like the first step is to talk about how I, a student like you all, deal with mental health issues and how I feel in general.

Thank you so much for reading! Have a great Christmas and have a great day y'all!


|--*christmas is coming y'all*--|
:cheers:|--*only 10 more days y'all*--|:cheers:
My calling for the peeps that want to be called:

Spoiler:
Show
Please tell me if you want me to remove your tags or add them.
briana2585epicnm Amen4 Toastiekid Obolinda mez_merising brainzistheword Shining Stars
I still can't add @starsj87 for some reason.

Hey! :hi:
Yayyyyyyy your room is decoarated! :nutcase: woop woop. And that message was so kind and thoughtful of you :yep:

You study loadssssssssss :eek: It makes me feel guilty for procrastinating so much :rofl:. Looking forward to coming posts!

Shining Stars 🌠


Spoiler:
Show
Btw, you might not be able to add that user because they may have deleted their account. I've experienced this too, if the name doesn't show in blue then they no longer use TSR
:cry:
0
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#91
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#91
(Original post by Shining Stars)
Spoiler:
Show
Btw, you might not be able to add that user because they may have deleted their account. I've experienced this too, if the name doesn't show in blue then they no longer use TSR
:cry:
Yeah, I was suspecting that they might have gotten banned or something like that. After I read your comment, I put my cursor over their account name(it's in the previous page) and it says they are 'banned'. It's kinda scaring me that so many accounts are getting banned :confused: I wonder what they did.
Last edited by rajayasaswini; 2 months ago
0
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#92
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#92
(Original post by Shining Stars)
Hey! :hi:
Yayyyyyyy your room is decoarated! :nutcase: woop woop. And that message was so kind and thoughtful of you :yep:

You study loadssssssssss :eek: It makes me feel guilty for procrastinating so much :rofl:. Looking forward to coming posts!

Shining Stars 🌠
I don't think I have been studying that much recently tbh I just feel really demotivated to do anything really. I will have to pick up my pace these holidays. Thanks for reading my GYG!:snow:Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!:snow:
0
reply
username4982256
Badges: 14
Rep:
?
#93
Report 2 months ago
#93
(Original post by rajayasaswini)
Yeah, I was suspecting that they might have gotten banned or something like that. After I read your comment, I put my cursor over their account name(it's in the previous page) and it says they are 'banned'. It's kinda scaring me that so many accounts are getting banned :confused: I wonder what they did.
It is a little worrying that people are doing so many bad things here that they have to get banned... but I guess it makes room for more positivity? :yep: My best bet is that they didn't follow guidelines and said something inappropriate. :dontknow:

(Original post by rajayasaswini)
I don't think I have been studying that much recently tbh I just feel really demotivated to do anything really. I will have to pick up my pace these holidays. Thanks for reading my GYG!:snow:Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!:snow:
We're both in the same position :rofl:. I really have to cover most of the stuff we've been doing this term over the holidays and I also have to prepare for classroom assessments *again*. :eviltongue:

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! :dance:
0
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#94
Report Thread starter 2 months ago
#94
(Original post by Shining Stars)
We're both in the same position :rofl:. I really have to cover most of the stuff we've been doing this term over the holidays and I also have to prepare for classroom assessments *again*. :eviltongue:

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! :dance:
Hello! :hi:

|--*ummmmm*--|
I had a question to ask you if you don't mind answering.:afraid: Are you doing your GCSEs this year?
Last edited by rajayasaswini; 2 months ago
0
reply
username4982256
Badges: 14
Rep:
?
#95
Report 2 months ago
#95
Hello! :five:

Of course I don't mind answering :nah:. I'm a Year 10 , so I don't believe I'm doing my GCSEs, but I am taking French mocks with Years 11s if that helps? :dontknow:

(Original post by rajayasaswini)
Hello! :hi:

|--*ummmmm*--|
I had a question to ask you if you don't mind answering.:afraid: Are you doing your GCSEs this year?
0
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#96
Report Thread starter 1 month ago
#96
Post 32
18/12/2019

Hello everyone! :hi:

How's life? How is the holiday going for y'all? Mine is okay. I feel like I have procrastinated too much. It's getting so hard to concentrate and I feel like I have actually improved today I guess. I got a whole 40 minutes of more stuff done than yesterday. I'm counting my classes in there too btw but still...improvement is still improvement.


|--*me telling myself this to make myself feel better about myself*--|
|--*I honestly don't even know what I should do to motivate myself*--|


|--*this is me 2 minutes into studying after the break I guess*--|
|--*I know I have those tips of mine but after returning to studying I just fall back to the bottom 5 minutes in*--|
|--*these are some really long captions*--|
|--*let's get back to the post*--|

Anyways, this is my to-do list:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191218-231036_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 13
Size:  136.6 KB


This is my new to-do list for tomorrow:

Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191218-232218_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 14
Size:  106.5 KB

I really need to get things done. A lot of people say that a timetable really helps but because I have classes at random times, I have to be much more flexible so I was thinking of how much time to spend on each subject and what subjects I should do. So that's pretty much my plan for the holidays. I still have 17 days of the holiday left and it's not too late to make amends.


|--*this is me pretty much every day on the inside*--|

Thank you so much for reading! Have great Christmas and a great day wherever y'all are!


|--*lesgeddit*--|
:dumbells:|--*let's officially get this bread y'all*--|:dumbells:
|--*fingers crossed and praying*--|
|--*hopefully i actually get this bread*--|
My calling for the peeps that want to be called:
Spoiler:
Show
Please tell me if you want me to remove your tags or add them.
briana2585epicnmAmen4 ToastiekidObolindamez_merisingbrainzisthewordShining Stars

Last edited by rajayasaswini; 1 month ago
0
reply
LucyOr15
Badges: 15
Rep:
?
#97
Report 1 month ago
#97
(Original post by rajayasaswini)
Post 32
18/12/2019

Hello everyone! :hi:

How's life? How is the holiday going for y'all? Mine are okay. I feel like I have procrastinated too much. It's getting so hard to concentrate and I feel like I have actually improved today I guess. I got a whole 40 minutes of more stuff done than yesterday. I'm counting my classes in there too btw but still...improvement is still improvement.


|--*me telling myself this to make myself feel better about myself*--|
|--*I honestly don't even know what I should do to motivate myself*--|


|--*this is me 2 minutes into studying after the break I guess*--|
|--*I know I have those tips of mine but after returning to studying I just fall back to the bottom 5 minutes in*--|
|--*these are some really long captions*--|
|--*let's get back to the post*--|

Anyways, this is my to-do list:
Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191218-231036_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 13
Size:  136.6 KB


This is my new to-do list for tomorrow:

Spoiler:
Show
Name:  Screenshot_20191218-232218_Study_Bunny[1].jpg
Views: 14
Size:  106.5 KB

I really need to get things done. A lot of people say that a timetable really helps but because I have classes at random times, I have to be much more flexible so I was thinking of how much time to spend on each subject and what subjects I should do. So that's pretty much my plan for the holidays. I still have 17 days of the holiday left and it's not too late to make amends.


|--*this is me pretty much every day on the inside*--|

Thank you so much for reading! Have great Christmas and a great day wherever y'all are!


|--*lesgeddit*--|
:dumbells:|--*let's officially get this bread y'all*--|:dumbells:
|--*fingers crossed and praying*--|
|--*hopefully i actually get this bread*--|
My calling for the peeps that want to be called:
Spoiler:
Show
Please tell me if you want me to remove your tags or add them.
briana2585epicnmAmen4 ToastiekidObolindamez_merisingbrainzisthewordShining Stars

Please add me
1
reply
mez_merising
Badges: 19
Rep:
?
#98
Report 1 month ago
#98
hope you take time over the holidays to rest and reset!
1
reply
xtazha.x
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#99
Report 1 month ago
#99
This is really good and inspirational. I would like to ask how you revise science because I struggle with that.
1
reply
rajayasaswini
Badges: 10
Rep:
?
#100
Report Thread starter 1 month ago
#100
The Mental Health Post
You don't have to read this if you don't want to or if you are going through depression and anxiety. It might trigger some people so TRIGGER WARNING! I have tried to make it a bit humorous with gifs and stuff like that because I don't want people to feel too depressed after reading this. I actually managed to end this on a positive note.:ahee: I don't know if I should tag people on to this post so I'm not going to tag anyone. If there is anything here that goes against the TSR rules, please do tell me and I will delete it.
Spoiler:
Show
I’m exhausted. I’m just really exhausted. There is no more motivation to drive me forward. It doesn’t completely explain how I feel but I guess it just seems that I’m still in a dark tunnel with no light at either end. I don’t know my way forward and I’m going insane. However, I do have a light next to me and that’s music. Even though music like K-Pop does make me relate to the artist, I’m just really jealous of them sometimes. They show beauty standards I could never reach. They all just look so beautiful and I really wish I could look like them.


|--*this is me being jealous*--|
|--*i still love them though*--|
|--*tbh i think it's more to do with their skincare routines which i want to follow*--|
|--*my mom doesn't let me do that*--|

I just wish I could be someone else and not me. Yeah, I know that I don’t know how someone else feels and what goes on behind the scenes but it just seems that everyone in my year is having a good time except me. I feel like everyone feels confident about their appearance except me. I feel like...everyone feels much better and have more friends than me. The jealousy increases even more. What about my social life? Why am I still studying every day? I really want a break. I feel like I can’t do it anymore but I guess at this point, its just music that is helping me take small steps even though the darkness surrounds me. I can’t see that far really but I can see everything within a few metres of myself.


|--*this is me after i see everyone's snap stories*--|

I don’t see anything. I can’t see anything. It’s completely empty. What if I’m alone? What if I never get out of here? What if…? What if..? What if…?! The questions buzz through my head pretty much every second. They’re giving me a headache and I feel like I’m going insane and I’m really sure I’m losing my sanity. No, I feel like I have already lost my sanity. I’m just going with the flow now. I don’t want to get out of bed to put on the same mask but I don’t want anyone to be sad because of me because I already feel like a burden to everyone.

I’m already tired of that fake smile I have but I keep smiling every day in the hopes that I actually manage to cheer up people around me when they feel down. I don’t want to make people sad. I don’t want to be a burden to anyone so I’ll just keep smiling all day. But I can’t keep that smile for the whole day. I don’t feel like smiling because I don’t feel anything anymore. I guess you could call that emotional numbness. I realised that a few years ago but didn’t know how I felt because I didn’t feel anything.


|--*this is so me*--|

When I got into music completely, I managed to smile because I felt happy by just seeing the artists I love feeling happy. It was something I hadn’t felt for a long time or maybe I had never felt it before. I was addicted to K-Pop but eventually, I snapped out of the addiction after 2 weeks. It’s been 2 years since I have gotten into K-Pop and I have matured along the way. I know I can’t always spend my time on them because they most probably don’t even know me. However, I do spend some time listening to their music because it’s the only thing driving me forward at this point. I’m at my breaking point already. I don’t know how long I can last like this without crying but I’m pretty sure it’s not for long.


|--*this is me having a breakdown alone in my room*--|

That is why I have decided to go to the school counsellor next term. I’ll keep going on for the next few weeks until I go to the school counsellor. My parents aren’t going to take me to the therapist anymore because they think I’m fine. They don’t understand. I feel like they don’t even try. That doesn’t make me feel angry. It just makes me pity them. I don’t feel like they were ever asked how they felt. I pity them for growing up in a society where there is a stigma around talking about your feelings and mental illnesses. My parents and the rest of my family (except my sister) are still surrounded by the stigma around mental illnesses. My parents didn’t like the idea of me telling people about how I go through depression and anxiety and the fact that I took antidepressants that didn’t even help me. They thought that the school wouldn’t allow me to do the “harder” A-Levels?

|--*this was me after I heard them say that*--|
|--*i just walked away after they said this*--|
|--*so confused as to why they would think that*--|
Aren’t all A-Levels hard? I wish they would try to understand and educate themselves more but I don't think that's possible when they have surrounded themselves with like-minded people and also watch videos that dismiss the idea of going to a counsellor. They don’t know I’m putting my story out on the Internet.

The person who understands me the most is most probably my older sister who has always asked me if I’m fine. I used to tell her but I don’t want to say anything anymore because she just worries about me. I don’t want to be a burden to her so I started asking her if she is okay because she’s also going through a hard time with job interviews and college applications.


|--*oh yeah we both watched frozen together but she already watched it before me*--|
|--*i'm still waiting to watch frozen 2 with her but she's lives abroad rn*--|

I hope something actually improves after I visit the school counsellor. I’m looking forward to it.

P.S. Don’t worry about me. I don't think I have lost my sanity really because I still feel pretty sane. I’m going to try my best to get better, I promise.

Thank you for reading my GYG! I love y'all and please take care of yourself!
0
reply
X

Quick Reply

Attached files
Write a reply...
Reply
new posts
Back
to top
Latest
My Feed

See more of what you like on
The Student Room

You can personalise what you see on TSR. Tell us a little about yourself to get started.

Personalise

People at uni: do initiations (like heavy drinking) put you off joining sports societies?

Yes (197)
67.93%
No (93)
32.07%

Watched Threads

View All
Latest
My Feed