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So, I've just started my teacher training SCITT. I've had it in my head that this is what I want to do for a while, mainly because I wanted to be a SENCO at the end as that's what I feel really passionate about, but I'm really struggling. I'm miserable and come home crying most nights. I feel so anxious about any lessons I'm teaching and my feedback hasn't been great so far. There isn't a single part that I'm enjoying at the minute, and most worryingly, I don't enjoy standing in front of 30 faces and speaking.I feel like I'll be letting myself and my family/friends down if I leave, but the idea of doing this for the rest another week, nevermind another year, fills me with dread! Does anyone have any advice for me? Help!
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So, I've just started my teacher training SCITT. I've had it in my head that this is what I want to do for a while, mainly because I wanted to be a SENCO at the end as that's what I feel really passionate about, but I'm really struggling. I'm miserable and come home crying most nights. I feel so anxious about any lessons I'm teaching and my feedback hasn't been great so far. There isn't a single part that I'm enjoying at the minute, and most worryingly, I don't enjoy standing in front of 30 faces and speaking.I feel like I'll be letting myself and my family/friends down if I leave, but the idea of doing this for the rest another week, nevermind another year, fills me with dread! Does anyone have any advice for me? Help!
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What you're feeling isn't unusual- training to teach is really tough, and teaching isn't for everyone. From what you've said, there isn't any aspect of the SCITT that you're enjoying, so to me that would be a sign that maybe teaching isn't for you, or at least isn't for you right now. If your main interest is SEN, I can see why you're not really enjoying classroom teaching- and you wouldn't be able to work as a SENCO straight after qualifying either (although you might be able to get a job in a special school.

Do you have a tutor through your SCITT (i.e. someone independent of school) who you can arrange to talk to? They will be able to talk through your options with you and should be able to help you figure out your next steps.

I do think the worst thing to do would be to stay in teaching because you are worried about what your family/friends will think- that wouldn't be right for you or for the kids.
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What you're feeling isn't unusual- training to teach is really tough, and teaching isn't for everyone. From what you've said, there isn't any aspect of the SCITT that you're enjoying, so to me that would be a sign that maybe teaching isn't for you, or at least isn't for you right now. If your main interest is SEN, I can see why you're not really enjoying classroom teaching- and you wouldn't be able to work as a SENCO straight after qualifying either (although you might be able to get a job in a special school.

Do you have a tutor through your SCITT (i.e. someone independent of school) who you can arrange to talk to? They will be able to talk through your options with you and should be able to help you figure out your next steps.

I do think the worst thing to do would be to stay in teaching because you are worried about what your family/friends will think- that wouldn't be right for you or for the kids.
Thank you for getting back to me!

I was expecting it to be difficult, but I didn't think I would dislike it so much. I actually dread getting up in the morning and my anxiety is so bad before I teach a lesson. I'm getting into school super early to prepare, then planning lessons all evening and weekend for them to then be terrible and me just not enjoy it - and I've not even got that many lessons at the moment!
I've worked in a school before, but supporting SEN (mainly SEMH) kids and this was an amazing job, but I'm thinking that thinks in more with counselling and therapy rather than teaching...
I'm going to try to speak to someone tomorrow. We break up for half term this week and the idea of going back after makes me feel absolutely horrendous
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Thank you for getting back to me!

I was expecting it to be difficult, but I didn't think I would dislike it so much. I actually dread getting up in the morning and my anxiety is so bad before I teach a lesson. I'm getting into school super early to prepare, then planning lessons all evening and weekend for them to then be terrible and me just not enjoy it - and I've not even got that many lessons at the moment!
I've worked in a school before, but supporting SEN (mainly SEMH) kids and this was an amazing job, but I'm thinking that thinks in more with counselling and therapy rather than teaching...
I'm going to try to speak to someone tomorrow. We break up for half term this week and the idea of going back after makes me feel absolutely horrendous
Can I ask are u in mainstream or sen school? I only ask because I was a mainstream teacher and my daughter is now training in an sen school... the difference seems huge and she is enjoying it far more than I ever did ... if you are mainstream could you look to do a transfer to an sen specialist provision... it is just possible its not teaching its mainstream teaching that isnt for you ! ?
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Thank you for getting back to me!

I was expecting it to be difficult, but I didn't think I would dislike it so much. I actually dread getting up in the morning and my anxiety is so bad before I teach a lesson. I'm getting into school super early to prepare, then planning lessons all evening and weekend for them to then be terrible and me just not enjoy it - and I've not even got that many lessons at the moment!
I've worked in a school before, but supporting SEN (mainly SEMH) kids and this was an amazing job, but I'm thinking that thinks in more with counselling and therapy rather than teaching...
I'm going to try to speak to someone tomorrow. We break up for half term this week and the idea of going back after makes me feel absolutely horrendous
I'm sorry you're finding things so tough- teaching isn't for everyone, and there is no shame in realizing that. Things will get a lot harder before they get easier, and this is just saying to me that teaching maybe just isn't for you right now. If you're working all evening and all weekend now, it's going to be a real struggle when your teaching load to increase.

I think if you did really want this, you could be supported to improve, but it doesn't sound like that's the case?

If you don't want to be there, the kids can often tell, as well, which can cause problems in lessons.

Have you thought about becoming something like an educational psychologist?
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Can I ask are u in mainstream or sen school? I only ask because I was a mainstream teacher and my daughter is now training in an sen school... the difference seems huge and she is enjoying it far more than I ever did ... if you are mainstream could you look to do a transfer to an sen specialist provision... it is just possible its not teaching its mainstream teaching that isnt for you ! ?
Yes it's a mainstream secondary school. I didn't realise there was an option to train in an SEN school, I imagine it would be quite different and a more supportive role.
I just feel so lost.
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I'm sorry you're finding things so tough- teaching isn't for everyone, and there is no shame in realizing that. Things will get a lot harder before they get easier, and this is just saying to me that teaching maybe just isn't for you right now. If you're working all evening and all weekend now, it's going to be a real struggle when your teaching load to increase.

I think if you did really want this, you could be supported to improve, but it doesn't sound like that's the case?

If you don't want to be there, the kids can often tell, as well, which can cause problems in lessons.

Have you thought about becoming something like an educational psychologist?
I spoke to people about feeling overwhelmed in the first week, but nothing changed. It was decided that it was standard practice I think and that it would be detrimental for me to reduce classes or do starters instead. I'm really worried that I'm just going to work constantly to try and get everything sorted and feel confident, and then my actual teaching just doesn't improve, or gets worse (which is sort of already happening).

I thought about a lot of other areas of work: Educational psychologist, occupational therapy, speech and language therapist - just no idea how to go about it.
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I spoke to people about feeling overwhelmed in the first week, but nothing changed. It was decided that it was standard practice I think and that it would be detrimental for me to reduce classes or do starters instead. I'm really worried that I'm just going to work constantly to try and get everything sorted and feel confident, and then my actual teaching just doesn't improve, or gets worse (which is sort of already happening).

I thought about a lot of other areas of work: Educational psychologist, occupational therapy, speech and language therapist - just no idea how to go about it.
I think it's worth talking to people again- explain you are feeling really miserable and feeling like leaving the course may be the best option. You may find you are offered more support then, but if you aren't enjoying any of the actual teaching then I do think that's a sign that classroom teaching isn't for you.

There are post-grad options which could lead to the other areas of work- I'm not sure how funding would work, but there are definitely options if you want to change direction.

Don't keep persevering with teaching because you aren't sure about what to do next!
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I spoke to people about feeling overwhelmed in the first week, but nothing changed. It was decided that it was standard practice I think and that it would be detrimental for me to reduce classes or do starters instead. I'm really worried that I'm just going to work constantly to try and get everything sorted and feel confident, and then my actual teaching just doesn't improve, or gets worse (which is sort of already happening).

I thought about a lot of other areas of work: Educational psychologist, occupational therapy, speech and language therapist - just no idea how to go about it.
So have you been class teaching since day 1? If so then this is poor. A traditional PGCE would not do this - you are supposed to be super-numerary.
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Another thing to take into account is that you are not the finished article at this stage. You are at the very start and no one is expecting you to be perfect.
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